Suddenly everything feels heavy. Not like it’s new, but this time it feels deeper like I’m getting lost while just trying to survive. Living itself feels exhausting.!! ;)
My head never stays quiet. I get so many ideas for ffs, so many scenes,, so many feelings. One song and my mind is already building another story, another world. And yet I can’t hold onto any of it.!!!!!
I see others doing so well, writing so much, growing, moving forward and I just feel stuck. Like I’m falling behind in everything without even realizing when it started.....,
I want to write. I really do. But the moment I try, I lose interest, or I don’t have the time, or I just feel too drained to continue. And whatever I do write it never feels enough. It feels small. It feels like the bare minimum. Like I’m giving nothing compared to what I should be.
And that feeling just keeps getting heavier.
I'm embarrassing myself!!