Normally I’d go through the effort to translate back to spanish, but right now I find myself at a loss for words and want to express it as smoothly as possible—
I’ve been out of the wattpad scene for many years now, and while I’ve logged in regularly to tweak my stories, I never thought to check back up on my mutuals and old friends… that will remain one of my biggest regrets now.
I cannot say we were ever super close, but we used to exchange words sometimes, back then I was so obsessed with the tomarry scene and they were literally the best writer of that ship in my eyes. I was so excited everytime I received a notification of an update. They were undoubtedly a source of joy for me during my depressive teenage years when I felt the entire world was against me, as you do. I remember we last spoke in 2017 or 2018, right about the end of one of their longest fics (forgive me for the lack of details, I cannot remember the title now), and one of the things I was looking up the most at the time was for the sequel, but about that time a lot of things changed in my life and I stopped being active in the community altogether.
Since then my life has changed drastically and sometimes I wondered; “how are those old fandom friends doing? I hope they are all doing good these days”. I just wish I had thought to open up my browser and type in their usernames.
I’m disappointed with myself and I am saddened to know I wasn’t here to even express my condolences when it was time, but well, I am here now.
I know that wherever you are, it is the exact type of paradise a soul like you deserved. You were and will continue to be a source of inspiration to many people, both for those who knew you, and for those who find your amazing works for the first time.
Thank you, and farewell. You will be dearly missed