rowanism

you REALLY cant take my advice of not taking the internet so god damn seriously. you just never know when to stop, and i doubt this’ll be the last time you send some shit to me on some wacky ass fanfic app. its been months of this koumori, grow up and realize you’ll forget about this relationship within 2 years, no one with a brain cares this much about a discord relationship 
          + those cats have never been happier, im sure you know that since you were begging to be ‘my little kitty cat’ and even getting jealous over them a few months ago

you were so dedicated on ‘comforting’ me through those things to the point it becomes annoying, i hardly spoke to you about my genuine issues after a few days of actually disliking you, since most of that time was spent ignoring you, i attempted to end my life moreover other stress reasons, ive had a good streak of attempts before, so another one with a reason including being replaced is not that solid of proof, you cheatedon me for literally doing nothing during those early stages, was what pushed me over. I did love you then so I tried to be understanding for once and it seemed to do nothing but make you want to replace me further, you refused to get better when i held a hand out to you during that, dragging me down with you entirely. and you should know im not the type to forgive someone for hurting me too within like 5 months of it happening? i genuinely don’t care about your therapist nor how you “never even liked me ” cause none of that shit effects me anymore; don’t even know why you bothered mentioning it, none of your lying ass comments are gonna hurt my wittle feelings and i find it reealllyyy fucked up how i finalize you getting the fuck out of my life and it ends up with you immediately going towards “oh well i have your families contacts and all your secrets”, weren’t you the one with crippling anxiety about being blackmailed? if you think about it, you’re not anything better than what I am
          basically, ive told you countless times i dont care about you due to you fucking up my past progress, you refused to leave so i was toxic towards you, you had the ability to leave the entire time, yet you didnt. matter of fact it wasnt even 24 hours ago you messaged me with “im so sorry im horrible i shouldnt have left!”, you put yourself in these situations and then scream once you get hurt?

its surprising how you say all this yet have came whining back to me at least 10 times. id like for you to know ive hardly given you any genuine information about myself nor my family, if you called my grandma up, which has a different number now, or went and found my mom, they’d laugh it off or have no clue about who’re you’re talking about; and since we’re on “non threatening” topics. you should know i still have a good amount of screenshots of you saying some nasty shit in the past, along with your innuendoing photos, along with access to your real life friends account and most likely the rest of whoever you have if i really tried hard enough, but of course i wouldn’t use any of it <3
          and yeah, for whatever storm you typed up after that, I’ve distanced myself from you and have tried to leave multiple times, before and during when i mentioned those things, you had a choice to leave and i never held you back. it had been a good 2-3 months where you had the entirety of decision, along with very obvious hints that i didnt like you nor wanted to be around you, i figured you were smart enough to pick up on that once i blatantly told you i disliked you and didnt want you in my life more than once.