royal-wakandan

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royal-wakandan

2/2 mom is. 
          
          I fear everyday that my wish if death is going to come true. 
          
          X helped me through so much. I have never mourned over a death like that in my life and man... i would wish that pain on my worst enemy. 
          
          I wanted to die a few days ago. 
          
          I wanted death to finish me off early so that i wint have to face them because my whole world is black. 
          
          I know i should be " Numb to all the pain" but i still have feeling.
          
          The past couple of months i started to be very angry. At the world. I was angry at myself and the world and i couldnt explain why. 
          
          I took so many pills i went through my contacts and told everyone how i felt about them. 
          
          X helped me so much throughout my whole life and i wouldnt be standing here today if it wasnt for him. 
          
          The only thing that is keeping me alive now is that u have way too many niggas to prove wrong .

royal-wakandan

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I'll tell you. The day after x's death i smiled and was happy bc i thought it was all a dream but once i looked at Twitter and wattpad....i hurt. You dont know pain until u feel something like that. I looked over and over and over and my vision got clearer that he was gone. That shit felt like someone was punching me in my gut over and over again. 
          
          I never knew how much i appreciated him until i really thought about it and that made it worse. I know people are going to be like "embrace his good" well thats what maked me cry until this day.
          
          It happened so suddenly. My emotions were all blank. I would cry and sob and drink and one moment i would pause everything. I wpuld stop and feel nothing. I would cry, numb, sleep and repeat and constantly feel sorry for myself and for the future momma of his baby. The way it hurt when i found out that baby was bound to be fatherless and have to tell people that his daddy got shot before he was even born hurt me. 
          
          It hurt me even more because now i have fear. 
          
          I have a fear of the world. I fear everyday that i and going to walk down the street and get shot and no one will know who did it. I feared everyday that i was going to be put as an outcast in highschool and i feared that i wasnt going to be the strong independent woman my 

royal-wakandan

Riddle
          
          Someone told me to go kill myself.
          
          There was no one around. 
          
          No one called me 
          
          No one texted me
          
          Who told me? 

deppsbabygirl

@royal-wakandan no one because we all love you. Boom, solved it
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royal-wakandan

I gave my love a piece of me and he turned and left I question what's my worth.

royal-wakandan

It's my birthday todayyyyyyyy