rubydundellion

I hate myself... Lately I've been Very afraid of leavijg my home. Mainly because of people and everthing thats been happening. I don't want to be in public because I'm afraid of dying...

Ayo im so tired. I'm really hating myself. I can't do anything right. My grades dropped significantly. My parents are mad. I have no motivation to do anything. I think there's something wrong with me but at the same time I dont think there's anything wrong with me. I'm just stupid and I don't deserve anything. I don't understand why I can't be good why I can't listen to my parents. I don't understand why I can't do anything. I just want to sleep thats all I want now. 

I'm really confused and tired. So much has happened. My mom wanted to leave my dad but then they got married a couple days later, my cousin got shot, theres something wrong with my grandma, I havent been productive in school.....I'm so tired. I wanna drop my course and just take a break but I feel like it's the wrong thing to do...... my family had been religiously lately.... I wanna be done.....

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