rubyyoonki

hisoka x crystalin 

You know what? I’m so sad right now I swear I’m gonna cry. I’ve been holding back tears all day for like 3 reasons, 1 is because I was talking about what goes on at my house (it’s horrible, and abusive) and I didn’t feel the need to physically cry, but inside I was still screaming and crying and I wanted to cry. Then, Bring the soul was kind of sad, but I was still thinking about my mother, and then I’m thinking about how nobody will ever love me. I have so much love to give. I’ll love you to end of the god damn world. But no one wants to love me. And the man I love the most has never met me. You may think it’s just a Celebrity crush and maybe you’re right, and I’ll be damned if you don’t think I’ll give the fucking world for him to even love me a little bit. I loved this man for over 5 years, this isn’t a small thing. I’ve never told you my age and I’m never going to, and I kind of grew up around this man, he’s taught me so many valuable things and I fucking adore him. This is probably some crazy mental breakdown but there’s one thing I know, I love Namjoon. But honestly I’m not worthy of love, so I just give all my love without expecting a return. Thanks.