ruth

oof why and how are you so cute and stuff lol luve you lol.

You are amazing!!
          You are important!!
          You are special!!
          You are unique!!
          You are loved  by me!!
          never think otherwise!!

So if y'all see me acting really different in school I'm really sorry you had to deal with my b*ll sh*t it's just, I woke up with a sour mood and im not really in the mood to do much I'm just not feeling it so I'm really sorry about that 

SpReaD LoVe 
            love you cutie! lol
          imma haunted you today...*snorted*
          
          I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU____ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___ I LOVE YOU___  
          ~(❤_❤)~~(❤_❤)~~(❤_❤)~

mineeeeee lol <3 love youuuuuuuuu XD sorry im awkward loll XD

Ever try to just bottle something up for a long time but you leave it like that to long that it comes to haunt you. You try to stay happy try to ignore the fact that you're not ok and be happy. But that bottled up feeling is constantly coming back again and again.just trying to stop myself from doing the same mistakes I did a long time ago, just trying not to snap and let this bottled up feeling consume me and turn me into something I shouldn't be, or be doing,  honestly I'm getting more tired my appetite is decreasing, and will sometimes increase badly,  my thoughts are consuming all this happiness I have left and I try my best to forget about the bad things but somethings can't be forgotten easily and I'm thankful for all these people I have now and even the ones that have hurt me, even if they added to this bottled up feeling because I've made many good memories with them even if the ones we have aren't at all good and pleasant right now it's hard to breathe but its alright. It's gonna be fine. My friends say I'm strong. So I try to be. And hopefully if I fall. They'll be there to help me back up. But I know they won't always be there for me even if they say they will. Because every good thing comes to and end as they say,  and if it was meant to be it will come back and if it wasn't well it was nice while it lasted, as they say. I hope that, that doesn't happen. But I also need to learn to help myself up if no one else is gonna be there for when I fall. 

Right now I need you and now you're gone all I ask for is one last hug before we truly said God bye you have no idea how much I need you,  these last two years have had many events some where good and others..... But right now all I need is to hear you speak....to feel your embrace and those kind words you told me..... I'm here for you and everything is gonna be ok...... I want to hear those words again not just from anyone..... But from you but I lost that..... And I lost you I just hope...... I just wish...... That God will give me that hope of having to see you again..... I don't care what he would want from me....... Because with just seeing you smile...... It would just be enough for me to be happy and forget everything...... 

Don't you ever feel like your friends don't really care about you yet they say you do but you're stuck in your own damn mind trying to tell yourself that what they're saying is true and not some made up bs? That the kind of state I'm right now yet my mind and body can't seem to f***ing get it.....