it's so funny having to see my old, unpublished drafts here, oh my gosh. cringe, try-hard, grammatically incorrect—that's how they were. i read them again today, and over and over again, i kept realizing how much i've grown in a span of less than 6 years. there were so many stuff i said that weren't even half true, just to sound cool and stiff.
i lied because i thought, "yeah, that sounds interesting and tuff." but now, i realized i've only created an image of myself that i know everyone would love. i made a version of myself that was far from how i really was. it's probably because i seeked the validity i couldn't get back then, and i looked for it in every people i met here. it's so not wrong, but i've done wrong because of it. i was young, very immature, and thought the world as against me. (lol)
now, looking back from where i was, it came to me that you don't have to ever feel like you're falling behind because everyone your age has already reached greater heights. you don't have to feel like they've achieved more things than you. you don't have to match their pace, make them love you, and be like them to get there. you don't have to fake being yourself, love. run your own race, enjoy the chase. live your life to the fullest.
become the best version of yourself, for yourself. don't change because someone told you to, because it seemed to you that it's better that way. change for yourself. the world may change, death may be inevitable. but along with the people you've met, you also got yourself. and that, alone is enough. you're already enough as you are, babe.
i wish you godspeed. i love you all.
with love,
the Raine you never knew ♡
