i cant do this anymore. i love writing, yet i cant bring myself to write out all the plots i have in my notes. i feel the need to write, but i cant do anything. im not in the best state right now, and i may be starting to develop an eating disorder. i really dont know what to do with my life anymore. my friends dont bother to check in on me and my family just makes my insecurities worse. ive thought about what would happen if i ended everything, yet no one cares. im so sick of being ignored and interrupted by everyone i know. i just want to go back to being my actual self.
because of this, ill probably deactivate this account. otherwise, ill just leave it here to rot. maybe one day if i can bring myself to do anything ill finish sober like i promised. but other than that, dont expect any works from me.
sorry
-jae