i love being alone n i rlly cherish my me time pero minsan nakakalungcoat lang na wala akong kaibigan na kayang ireciprocate energy ko, marunong umintindi, makavibe, considerate, n same interests ganon.. most of my friends kasi ngayon parang ang selfish nila, madalas sarili lang nila ang iniisip, tapos yung tipong kilala ko sila pero at the same time hindi din like never kami nagkwento ng buhay namin hay tapos minsan nagsisinungaling pa harap harapan parang di ko nalang alam, minsan nakakapagod umintindi n napapaisip nalang ako kung magkaibigan ba talaga kami yung tipong bespren talaga kay circle of friends ko man din sila n we've been tgt since hs na din.. imagine ni unfriend pako sa roblox nung isang friend ko sa main niya parang ewan mababaw ba? ewan ko kasi para sakin it's like they don't truly see me as their friend tapos imagine nung g7, ako pa naging first ever friend niya kasi transferee siya that time pero natransfer siya sa ibang class pero alam mo yun pumupunta naman ako dun, we were even close pa nga.. it's j i don't understand y we should consider ourselves "bestfriends" if we keep each other at an arm's length?? ever since i realized these things nung g7 ako, i never treated any of my friends as "bestfriends", not even my circle of friends... i would j refer to them as close friends ganon but never more than that. i j don't want to expect anything anymore n leave it as it is..
