rxsesv

it’s strange, isn’t it? how just a glimpse a candid photo, a quick video, two people standing in the same frame can stitch back together a piece of hope you’d quietly buried away. for so long i’d convinced myself to let the idea of them go, to stop reading too much into passing moments. but then, there they were  side by side under a thousand lights, looking like they belonged there together. and suddenly my heart, which had learned to stay quiet, cracked open in the softest, happiest way. maybe it’s foolish, maybe the world will say we’re imagining things, but for now, i’m letting myself feel it that wild, reckless hope that maybe, just maybe, shubsara is still real.
          	
          	i get it. it’s so hard, isn’t it? when your heart decides to love an idea, two people together, the way they look next to each other, the stories you spin in your head, and suddenly it feels bigger than you. people will say it’s just gossip, it’s fake, look at the proofs, move on, but how do you tell your heart to unsee something it wants to believe in
          	
          	you don’t really have to stop liking them, but you can remind yourself that their real lives aren’t yours to control. it’s okay to smile at the idea, to feel warm when you see them near each other, but try not to hold it so tight that it hurts when reality doesn’t match the dream. you can love the idea and still let them be human, messy, private, maybe something else entirely
          	
          	so feel the rush, let your heart bloom for a moment, but don’t let it break you if it’s not true. it’s not wrong to wish for something soft and beautiful. it just means you care

orangecatenergy

@rxsesv omg yes i think this just what i needed to hear! thankss girll<33 also really proud of how ur dealing with this too
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rxsesv

@orangecatenergy i get u bb, its fine just hold onto them a lil looser, becuz things going around them rn is too confusing, lets not take too much to our mind no? enjoy what u see and just let it be like that. will know what will be our endgame one day or the other :)
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the_stellarflower

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rxsesv

it’s strange, isn’t it? how just a glimpse a candid photo, a quick video, two people standing in the same frame can stitch back together a piece of hope you’d quietly buried away. for so long i’d convinced myself to let the idea of them go, to stop reading too much into passing moments. but then, there they were  side by side under a thousand lights, looking like they belonged there together. and suddenly my heart, which had learned to stay quiet, cracked open in the softest, happiest way. maybe it’s foolish, maybe the world will say we’re imagining things, but for now, i’m letting myself feel it that wild, reckless hope that maybe, just maybe, shubsara is still real.
          
          i get it. it’s so hard, isn’t it? when your heart decides to love an idea, two people together, the way they look next to each other, the stories you spin in your head, and suddenly it feels bigger than you. people will say it’s just gossip, it’s fake, look at the proofs, move on, but how do you tell your heart to unsee something it wants to believe in
          
          you don’t really have to stop liking them, but you can remind yourself that their real lives aren’t yours to control. it’s okay to smile at the idea, to feel warm when you see them near each other, but try not to hold it so tight that it hurts when reality doesn’t match the dream. you can love the idea and still let them be human, messy, private, maybe something else entirely
          
          so feel the rush, let your heart bloom for a moment, but don’t let it break you if it’s not true. it’s not wrong to wish for something soft and beautiful. it just means you care

orangecatenergy

@rxsesv omg yes i think this just what i needed to hear! thankss girll<33 also really proud of how ur dealing with this too
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rxsesv

@orangecatenergy i get u bb, its fine just hold onto them a lil looser, becuz things going around them rn is too confusing, lets not take too much to our mind no? enjoy what u see and just let it be like that. will know what will be our endgame one day or the other :)
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rxsesv

sometimes i think the cruelest thing people do is leave without telling you what you did wrong so you sit there picking apart every version of yourself wondering which one made them stop loving you i stayed i stayed through their bad days i stayed when they didn’t have the words i stayed when they needed someone at 2 am when they needed silence when they needed laughter i stayed like it was my only job and now they’re gone and i’m here with all this love rotting in my chest no explanation no fight no slammed door just silence i check my phone like an idiot waiting for a sorry or a lie or even blame i’d take the blame if it meant i’d at least know what monster they think i am i replay our calls our jokes our photos every detail looking for a crack that maybe i missed maybe i talked too much maybe i cared too loud maybe i loved them so good it made me disposable i sit with five people around me and still feel like the only one in the room without a name no one sees how my chest feels like an empty house no lights on no one knocking i want to scream tell me what i did wrong so i can hate myself properly instead of guessing but they won’t they never do because it’s easier to ghost than to explain it’s easier to blame my softness in their head than face the fact that i gave them all the things they didn’t know how to keep and now i’m here alone with all this loyalty like an idiot medal pinned to a ghost no one claps for i didn’t leave i didn’t lie i didn’t drift i just stayed and staying is the loneliest thing i’ve ever done

stolenreveries_

@rxsesv I'm glad my words helped, even if it wasn't much, anytime babe <3 if you wanna rant I'm right here just don't bottle it up<3 
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rxsesv

@stolenreveries_ thank you so much for saying this seriously it means a lot. i needed to hear it. you don’t even know how much better it feels to have someone just see it and not make me feel stupid for feeling this way. i’m really glad you’re here with me. i appreciate you so much for staying. love you <33
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rxsesv

i know i haven’t updated any of my ongoing works but the inner voice in me is telling me to publish a new shubman x sara book. should i? or do yall want me to complete the ongoing ones first?

rxsesv

@stolenreveries_ okayyy thenn ill publish it rn!!
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stolenreveries_

@rxsesv they do request for updates but honestly it's okay, you don't have many books, and if you're running out of ideas for a certain book, you can tell the readers so!
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rxsesv

@stolenreveries_ rightt but would readers be annoyed cuz once they get invested in the story line it would be hard for them if the updates are inconsistent 
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rxsesv

world is finally healing. as a rcbian thanks for doing this to our veere, boys. words won't be enough to express my emotions. stuff of dreams but this time dreams did become true. only love to my team <3

rxsesv

@Francisska cannot agree more they did it for us, for vee, for rcb as a whole. still feels unreal i swear and thanks to ppl like u im sure rcb needed it the most <3
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Francisska

@rxsesv KKR fan here but was whole heartedly supporting RCB since the time they qualified. No one deserved this trophy more than Virat. The whole of India cried along with Virat last night, glad they were tears of happiness. Huge congratulations to the team for their determination and belief, the fans for their relentless support and of course the man, the myth, the legend Virat ❤❤
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rxsesv

hi yall
          mentally im not doing well its not the matches and all (it did play a role but not as a whole) so for now both my books will be on hold till i come back :)
          thank you for ur support idk how long it will take but im sure i will come back 
          and please im running short of ideas for stumped do give me some on what u want to see and stuff if possible. 
          love ya xx
          take care

rxsesv

@stolenreveries_ aghh thanks love id love to talk abt it but i pretty much dont know whats happening to me myself like i feel so dull lonely and idk that josh is missing in me since a few days, but thank you omg this means so much to me <33 take care of yourself too!
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rxsesv

@orangecatenergy thankk youu bubsss im too lucky to have u <33 and yes ill be back soon just a lil break maybe for a few days.
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orangecatenergy

@rxsesv take ur time author jii, it's completely fine to have bad days, take ur time its no hurry. im sure you'll be back feeling better soon!!
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rxsesv

guyss
          on a seriouss notee should i update all eyes on us or put it on hold?
          becuz many of you read stumped and not all eyes on us so what should i dooo??
          anyways stumped has been updated with 2 chapters do chk it out!

who_da_faq

@rxsesv ofc take your time, what ever is happening just hang on, bhagwaan will only do what is right for you have faith in them and thank you sm!!
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rxsesv

@who_da_faq omgggg that means the worldd to me thank you so much. andd godd life has been hectic i dont get enough time to write! but ill make sure i update all eyes on us first, for you. thank you <3
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who_da_faq

@rxsesv bro i was so invested in all eyes on us that i did not even check the no. of chapters before reading and now i am hanging on the cliff hanger. Please update that storyy!!!! I was so curious about what was going to happen in dubai now. And btw... your story thinking is epicc...so creative
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