rxtrrisbetter

Four months ago, I lost a very special person. My boyfriend, who was also the second owner of this account. It's been a really hard four months without him especially with college starting and shit, but I know that I can't just fucking give up because if he was here, he would tell me to get up off my lazy ass and to stop moping and we would have probably went to the gym to calm down like we usually do. But he's. not. here. He was getting so much better, he really truly, did not deserve to leave this early. Every day I wake up and ask, why him and not me? Why did he have to get sick? Even though we have been boyfriends for a long time, 4 years, he meant much more to me even before that. He was my best friend, and I really don't know what I'ma do without him. When his parents fucking kicked him out of the house for being who he is, for loving who he loves, my family and I took him in. I really fucking hate the douchebags of a parent he had with the bottom of my heart, they didn't even fucking show up to his funeral. I'm real sorry for this long ass paragraph but I really had to let this shit out man.