ryleymak

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i really hate depression. i also hate bipolar disorder. i hate anxiety, too. and most of all, i hate having all three hit me at the same time.
          	
          	there's always some sort of fork in the path of my life and it always feels like my depression leads me to choose the obvious wrong way. then once i'm headed down that road my anxiety freaks me the hell out and i end up worrying myself so much that i forget to eat or lose focus of my coursework. it's sort of a downward spiral and its a shit feeling, trust me, i know.
          	
          	even so, i try to stay positive. i know that life could be a whole lot worse and that i've been blessed with the best. i know that a lot of other people are going through the same stuff as me, and just simply knowing that i'm not alone is comforting. knowing that someone else is walking right beside me on that wrong path, makes me feel a bit better.
          	
          	so since that helps me, maybe there's a chance it could also help any of you guys who might be dealing with the same stuff as me.
          	
          	i'm always here. pm me if you need anything.
          	
          	yeah.
          	
          	-ryley

3pointt14

@ryleymak Trust me, I go through that enough times to say it has become a religion. You're not alone.  
          	  
          	  Suicidal thoughts and actions and depression are literally my middle names sometimes---it's like they live with me.  I share a room with them, I share a bathroom, a roof and bed.  It's hard to shake off something you live with.  
          	  
          	  Anyway, I'm here for you too. 
          	  
          	  from a buddy and stranger, 
          	  xx8tracks
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ryleymak

this message may be offensive 
i really hate depression. i also hate bipolar disorder. i hate anxiety, too. and most of all, i hate having all three hit me at the same time.
          
          there's always some sort of fork in the path of my life and it always feels like my depression leads me to choose the obvious wrong way. then once i'm headed down that road my anxiety freaks me the hell out and i end up worrying myself so much that i forget to eat or lose focus of my coursework. it's sort of a downward spiral and its a shit feeling, trust me, i know.
          
          even so, i try to stay positive. i know that life could be a whole lot worse and that i've been blessed with the best. i know that a lot of other people are going through the same stuff as me, and just simply knowing that i'm not alone is comforting. knowing that someone else is walking right beside me on that wrong path, makes me feel a bit better.
          
          so since that helps me, maybe there's a chance it could also help any of you guys who might be dealing with the same stuff as me.
          
          i'm always here. pm me if you need anything.
          
          yeah.
          
          -ryley

3pointt14

@ryleymak Trust me, I go through that enough times to say it has become a religion. You're not alone.  
            
            Suicidal thoughts and actions and depression are literally my middle names sometimes---it's like they live with me.  I share a room with them, I share a bathroom, a roof and bed.  It's hard to shake off something you live with.  
            
            Anyway, I'm here for you too. 
            
            from a buddy and stranger, 
            xx8tracks
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