Len

overwhelmed yet empty at the same time
          an odd combination yet it is your usual 
          
          loud mind, tied tongue
          
          ........
          
          

I feel like crying, I don't know why. 
          All of a sudden there's this overwhelming sadness that makes me want to run away from everyone.
          A minute ago I was fine.
          
          Goddamn. 

Your kisses used to be my drug
          but now they're nothing but a bitter taste that was stuck in my tongue.
          
          

Today, I realised something and I felt like crying, but no you don't deserve my tear.... 
          
          
          Not anymore. 

H3llö! C4n yOü b3 mY T3xtM8?! PlxZzz r3pLy! :'))

Hi Ryn! :) happy new year sayo! 

Been awake since 3:00 am
          The emptiness inside kept your eyes open.
          
          You've been dying to feel something other than this loneliness.
          
          I've been a mess since you made feel that you care less. 
          
          Would it be selfish if I decided to leave you and find my happiness?
          
          Feeling like a mess. 
          
          Craving to find an end to this sadness. 
          

Woke up in the middle of the night
          Looked up on the other side of the bed
          And then I'm hurting again.
          
          And I realised that I'm always hurting
          I just learned how to live with it that I almost forgot that I was feeling it. 
          
          And right now it just made itself known again. 
          

When you are surrounded by your family but still you feel lost and craves to feel that you belong... Where is home?
          
          When you feel like your missing something but couldn't figure out what it is... Where would you find it?
          
          When you still feel cold inside even if you're being engulfed with a tight hug... Where will you seek for that warmth?
          

Took a trip down memory lane,
           saw little me in the corner, I was fine.
          
          Walked a little further,
           saw another me, I was little older
           still standing in that corner.
          
          Went outside,
           and there I was trying to hide.
          
          She wasn't happy nor sad,
           she's empty inside.
          
          As she went back to the present,
           she realised something that was permanent.
          
          
          Her loneliness is consistent.