I remember being extremely weird when i was little, not because of SA and bullying
But
At 11, i took picture of a pigeon's corpse with y'know all out, extremely gruesome
At 13, i was with a friend and in they're garden they have big brown worm, idk their name sorry, with a big garden scissor, we cut it open and same as the pigeon all out, my friend was disgusted but not me, i did it lore than one time
And now at 15 almost 16, i have really thought of violent murderous stuff, i have still pigeon corpse in picture and i did saw a real human corpse. Of course i stopped animals cruelty, i'm kinda worried about myself maybe