꒰ ★♪ ◞ 。𝓪𝓵𝓲𝓬𝓮 ⠀.ᐟ

watching harry potter while wearing my harry potter shirt for christmas… greatest christmas ever XD

this past week has been absolute dogshit for me man. was on my period, devastatingly nauseous, had a case of the shits (tmi, sorry), and now i’m experiencing horrible cramps or pain that feels similar. all this started on either monday or tuesday (the 8-9th), and i’m just having a shitty time. doctors where i live only care about money, and if you’re like me — in medical debt — then they’ll likely turn you away. which is illegal. but the system is rigged too, so what will happen if i try to sue? absolutely nothing. still gonna try to look for doctors because this has been going on for too damn long. america sucks. don’t come here if you’re outside the US.

i hate invisigal chat

“don’t dream it’s over” by crowded house and “blame it on the rain” by milli vanilli have been stuck in my head for like, a few months, and i didn’t know why until now. i heard both in “monsters,” which is the menendez brothers docuseries. which i didnt even like watching so  ಠ_ಠ

why do i keep publishing stuff that is unfinished? especially when i KNOW i cant commit to the shit i make myself write about… im looking at you, superman fic that i puvblished last month and havent touched since then </3 and the bob fic that i “promised” to write (i literally said “i might” or “i should”), and then published it at thr same time as my sueprman one, then proceeded to unpublish the bob fic because im not writing it anymore even though i loved the concept </3 
          
          ts makes me wanna stop writing altogether bruh

doing everything but updating my fics </3

hyperfixating on david corenswet AND joseph quinn (again, loved eddie munson) is NOT for the weak.

i have a love-hate realtionship with writing. cuz you’d think i’d be able to write more for my superman fic after watching the movie, right? well, no, i am blanking :)

i’m FINALLY gonna see superman this friday!! im so excited dude >:D

no motivation and too much freetime is like… the worst combo. have all these ideas and WIPs, then just have no motivation to write/update :(