s1llyBerry

How do you find motivation again when you never had motivation in the first place? Maybe writing was just a phase. I'll pick things up again when I find motivation. But maybe motivation's just another phase. I'm sorry for wasting your time.

s1llyBerry

@LightningTrail Thanks :3 I just wish I hadn't burned out like this. It always made me really sad to read a good story only to realize that the author hadn't updated to the next part in like 3 years. So I swore I'd never be the same lolzahs... I guess life just caught up to me. Like I have the time rn, but I just can't do it. I switch things around and everything, but it feels like I'm ready to let go of it already even though it's not even finished. I'll get back on it some time, I just hope it's soon. I miss being so full of ideas that I wanted to share with everyone ;3
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LightningTrail

And the reason I say this is because I know it’s true! Like, now my story obsession follows a different show with a different form of reading (comic books), and it hasn’t died yet! Maybe it’s because I haven’t shared it with too many people, or because art is easier for me than writing is, but it shows me that my passion can be refilled back to the brim like it used to be, which means you can get it back too. Just take a breather and get some you-time. 
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LightningTrail

I would say that it was your passion leading your motivation. I’ve always been a daydreamer, with a thousands stories playing in my head, original or not. And after I finished the MyStreet series, I was overflowing with Aphmau ideas—because Aphmau’s channel is like my brain 24/7 lol, making up crazy stories every day because it’s fun. So because my passion was to the brim, I finally decided to write something! But after burnout and writers block slowly took over, the reason I started—the passion—was slowly forgotten, and I didn’t find writing fun anymore. And I don’t think writing for you was just a phase, because you are VERY talented for your age. So my suggestion? Take a break and find out why you started. Get that creative passion back from the ashes lol. 
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maybe_alyssah

So, just want to say…i’m so sorry if Berry actually goes off hiatus for one chapter. 
          
          Totally isn’t my fault…don’t go after me for what she’s gonna write 

s1llyBerry

@maybe_alyssah WHERE WOULD I EVEN WRITE IT?? I wouldn't do that to people :3 Especially since I've got a nice order and timeline worked out for the next 5 chapters... BUT MAYBE I'LL KILL HIM OFF IN THE FUTURE :0 OH WAIT THAT'S PERFECT!! I'LL GIVE THEM ALL THEIR HAPPY ENDING AND THEN I'LL HAVE APHMAU WAKE UP IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT
            
            actually I should probably not state this publicly... I'll give you spoilers tho hehe but not on my message board >;3
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maybe_alyssah

@s1llyBerry I COMPLETELY AGREE JUST SAYING THAT PPL SHOULDNT GO AFTER ME BC I TOTALLY DIDNT START THIS-
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s1llyBerry

@maybe_alyssah MAYBE I WILL WRITE IT! MAYBE I WILL KILL OF THEM OFF! IT'S NOT YOUR FAULT, IT'S ALL JESS'S FAULT!! BECAUSE WDYM THIS IS WHAT AARMAU'S BEEN THIS ENTIRE TIME?? EW EW EW EW PMO PMO PMO I HATE THEM I HATE THEM ALL SM IT MAKES ME MAD IT MAKES ME SO SO SO MAD I WANT THEM ALL TO DIE, I WISH AARON DIED IN S4 AND I HOPE THAT S6 KILLS OFF AL THEIR FREAKINESS AND EW EW EW
            
            anyways Travlyn and Zana are safe because I still love them <3 It's okay I never like Aarmau... BLECK ICK ICK ICK ICK ICK
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s1llyBerry

How do you find motivation again when you never had motivation in the first place? Maybe writing was just a phase. I'll pick things up again when I find motivation. But maybe motivation's just another phase. I'm sorry for wasting your time.

s1llyBerry

@LightningTrail Thanks :3 I just wish I hadn't burned out like this. It always made me really sad to read a good story only to realize that the author hadn't updated to the next part in like 3 years. So I swore I'd never be the same lolzahs... I guess life just caught up to me. Like I have the time rn, but I just can't do it. I switch things around and everything, but it feels like I'm ready to let go of it already even though it's not even finished. I'll get back on it some time, I just hope it's soon. I miss being so full of ideas that I wanted to share with everyone ;3
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LightningTrail

And the reason I say this is because I know it’s true! Like, now my story obsession follows a different show with a different form of reading (comic books), and it hasn’t died yet! Maybe it’s because I haven’t shared it with too many people, or because art is easier for me than writing is, but it shows me that my passion can be refilled back to the brim like it used to be, which means you can get it back too. Just take a breather and get some you-time. 
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LightningTrail

I would say that it was your passion leading your motivation. I’ve always been a daydreamer, with a thousands stories playing in my head, original or not. And after I finished the MyStreet series, I was overflowing with Aphmau ideas—because Aphmau’s channel is like my brain 24/7 lol, making up crazy stories every day because it’s fun. So because my passion was to the brim, I finally decided to write something! But after burnout and writers block slowly took over, the reason I started—the passion—was slowly forgotten, and I didn’t find writing fun anymore. And I don’t think writing for you was just a phase, because you are VERY talented for your age. So my suggestion? Take a break and find out why you started. Get that creative passion back from the ashes lol. 
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s1llyBerry

And another reason why the next chapter's release is taking so long is because I'm working on another project. It was supposed to be for April Fools, but ummm as you can see it is no longer April.
          
          SPOILERS AHEAD:
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          The story is called Searching For Home, and it takes place inside of Aphmau's newest comic (that I hated with a passion!!) called Searching For Home. I could tell I was definitely not the target audience, so I decided I wanted to rewrite it with my own take on it. Rn I'm like 1/3 into the plot, and it's going pretty good. Definitely beefened up my writing style for this (cuz I wanted to practice writing in Third Person so I'm experienced enough when I finish When Realms Break and move onto Hope Against Hope.)
          
          If anyone here wants to see a small teaser of it, let me know and I'll put a small snippet of it into my Book of Yap. Thanks for sticking around! :3

s1llyBerry

Idk what I'm doing here, but I haven't been able to stop crying for the past four days. AND IT'S FOR THE MOST STUPID REASON EVER!
          
          I'm crying cuz school is over... Is this what withdrawal feels like? BUT WITH MIDDLE SCHOOL?!! WTH. 
          
          my cousins asked me for a picture they could use as my pfp, and so I went into my camera roll and saw my pictures from graduation with all my teachers and friends AND I JUST STARTED BAWLING BRO. I COULDN'T STOP CRYING FOR FOUR WHOLE HOURS, MY FRIENDS WERE JUDGING ME SO BAD.
          
          I hate Alzheimer's. I hate it just as much as cancer, maybe more. BECAUSE WDYM MY FAVORITE TEACHER EVER MIGHT GET ALZHEIMER'S BECAUSE IT RUNS IN HIS FAMILY? BITCH MY UNCLE'S DAD HAD ALZHEIMER'S AND HE DIDN'T EVEN RECOGNIZE HIS OWN SON AND TRIED TO ATTACK HIM! SO DON'T YOU BE MAKING ANY PROMISES ABOUT PROMISING TO "REMEMBER US FOREVER" WHEN YOU JUST DROPPED THE BOMB THAT YOU MIGHT GET ALZHEIMER'S!
          
          I'm not even on my period or anything bro, I'm just being stupid XDD T-T 
          
          And I got to do the main speech for graduation, and at the end of it I went rogue... I stayed up there instead of going back to my seat like planned, and then I went off-script so I could thank my fav teacher. BUT I FORGOT ABOUT ALL THE COMPLIMENTS, I JUST WENT STRAIGHT FROM INTRODUCING HIM TO THE AUDIENCE TO THE GOODBYE SENTIMENTS BRO. AND I WANTED TO TELL EVERYONE TO STAND UP BEFORE APPLAUDING HIM BUT I FORGOT, SO HE DIDN'T GET A STANDING OVATION!! THERE WILL NEVER EVER BE ANOTHER OPPORTUNITY FAHHHH
          
          And I did make him cry, but like... I coulda done more ಥ_ಥ
          
          ayyyy but I made his WIFE cry, omg she's so pretty I wanna look like her when I'm an adult lolll 
          
          I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL I WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL TAKE ME BACK TAKE ME TAKE ME I CAN'T GO TO HIGH SCHOOL I'M GOING TO DIE THERE I'M LITERALLY COOKED I CAN'T GO THERE I CAN'T I CAN'T I CAN'T
          
          Oh, and my summer schedule is PACKED with summer high school sports workouts... let's just say this account is dead for summer...

s1llyBerry

@LightningTrail CRAZY WORK. Here's to hoping it never happens to you!
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LightningTrail

@s1llyBerry bruh imagine my sleep paralysis demon was just myself lol
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s1llyBerry

HAS ANYONE SEEN THE TRAILER FOR “ZOMBIE STAGE” BY VIVINOS?! ALIEN STAGE AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (also pls note that VIVINOS said that Ivantill is canon in every universe except for the main one, so we might have the wholesome yaoi!! Also Sua with long hair cuz she didn’t cut it to heighten Mizi’s chances of surviving… and is Hyuna the main character?) ENOUGH SPECULATION! I NEED ANSWERS! I NEED TO SEE IT ASAP!! 
          
          God bless VIVINOS, God bless ALNS, God bless Zombie Stage, God bless Ivantill, God bless Mizisua <3

s1llyBerry

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH!!! I've been throwing skittles at my classmates and then scurrying away like a little gremlin >;3
          
          To all those who celebrate, always stay true to your identity, and never let anyone else tell you who you are!
          
          s1llyberry OUT
          
          (Yes, I still have made no progress on the next chapter... at all... it's embarrassing...)

Book_bestie1912

@s1llyBerry SNEZHNEYA??? I MISSED A LOT OH MY GOSH IVE BARELLY STARTED NOD KRAI
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s1llyBerry

@Book_bestie1912 I HEARD WE MADE IT TP SNEZHNEYA… I’m tryna make it past Nod Krai’s first act, but it’s been MONTHS >_<
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Book_bestie1912

@s1llyBerry HAPPY PRIDE MONTH (yes im alive and im back un the genshin fandom and im very concerned on how much i missed) ANYWAY THANKS FOR THE IDEA IMA GO THROW SKITTLES AT PEOPLE
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s1llyBerry

no. nonono. Haha you must be joking. NO! NO! I SAID NO! NONONONONONONONONONONONONONNONONONONONONO!!!! WHY?! WHO DID THIS?!! WHY IS THIS NECESSARY??!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
          
          so basically I can see whatever you guys comment, so that must mean you can see whatever I comment, and that's BAD NEWS FOR ME because you'll see me being a CRAZY FANGIRL in a WHOLE DIFFERENT FANDOM shouting CRAZING THINGS and CUSSING AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
          
          pls Wattpad pllssss remove this feature or at least put a privacy setting to disable it  ಥ_ಥ

idk-9871

@s1llyBerry not that I know of no
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s1llyBerry

@idk-9871 WAIT IT’S ALL ME? I meannnn can you see me commenting anything? Cuz I’ve been offline all day 
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s1llyBerry

Bad news... summer has never looked busier (for sports workout reasons) and I'll be home for like an hour or two at a time when I'm not sleeping... I wanted to finish When Realms Break by this summer but it might have to go on temporary hiatus depending on how crazy the workload is! Just keep your eyes peeled ig

s1llyBerry

@maybe_alyssah yeah I also have soccer and tennis workouts... I also have theater. I'M SO COOKED BRUH CAN I JUST DROP OUT OF HIGH SCHOOL T^T
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maybe_alyssah

That’s so real. I have so many volleyball related workouts or games this summer, plus spending time with friends and family. Oh and editing. I dont know if I’ll ever have time 
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