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I uh... I don't know what I'm going to do at this point. I don't know whether to continue with my life, Internet life, Instagram, Wattpad, everything, my own life. I honestly dont even know why I haven't stopped yet. But you know, I was thinking all day after school and then I realized that it was my friends helping me get through all this and that you can't get through anything without them. You guys are the ones who've gotten me through all this. My depression has gotten better, I've become more social, more open, more 'likable', more happy. And it was all because of you guys. I thank you guys for all the support recently. And I also thank you guys for being my friends through everything. I know that I can't find the words to fully express how I feel about this situation but, I'm kind of stuck right now. Ive got a lot of people going around talking shit and talking crap about me and my best friends and I honestly don't know how to explain this situation, but I'm debating whether to leave Wattpad and Instagram forever. But, I honestly don't want to, but I'll only go if you want me to go. If you don't want me to go, please tell me... Because I'm really contemplating whether I should continue with everything. So... I'm really stuck right now and it's kind of difficult. I'm trying to be happy but I just feel like everyone is pushing me away or that I'm not doing good. I don't want to feel like I'm pushing any of you away or that you guys are pushing me away. But we've all grown since I started on November 10 of 2015. And it wasn't me oh no, it was you guys. You guys are the ones who found faith in me to continue with everything and found happiness and friends and more peace with myself that I never thought I'd find. Thank you guys for everything. I love you. ❤️