pessimistic cunt

OIGSETJAWEHKWJAHVE I AM,, SCREAMING !! 
          WATTPAD SENT ME A MSSGE THAT THEY THINK ONE OF MY STORIES SHOULD BE ENTERED AT THEIR CONTEST GGaH !!!!!!!! 
          I. AM. H Y P E D 
          [goes into keyboard warrior mode]

Cheers Farm is deleted for personal reasons. I apologize if you actually enjoyed the story. I may or may not make another Transformice novel.

"When you see my face, hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell 
          When you walk my way hope it gives you hell, hope it gives you hell 
          When you find a man that's worth a damn and treats you well, then he's a fool, you're just as well, hope it gives you hell 
          Hope it gives you hell"

"Language is scary when over-analysed
          Every word that I say seems far too contrived
          What are your intentions? I'm ashamed by mine
          When I'm thinking too much, I realise I'm unkind
          
          Pretend that I'm nicer than I'll ever be
          I am selfish and deluded, enjoy my hypocrisy
          Complain that I'm bored, when being bored is a privilege
          Act like I'm suffering, there's no suffering in this
          
          First world problems, they breed in my head
          Ethical contradictions between my actions and what I've said
          I should just shut my mouth as evidence piles against me
          That I'm so much worse than I think, exposed as a phoney
          
          I am shit, I am shit
          Nuh nuh nur nur, fucking dick
          I am shit, I am shit
          Nuh nur nuh nur, nuh, nuh"

"Girl, I want to say I'm sorry
          I am restless and I am weak.
          I can't live this world without you
          And I'm down on my knees.
          
          I hope you find it in your heart,
          to try and do this one more time
          to mend your loss and heal your heart
          Please try to trust me
          
          One more time"

sorry for the lyric spam i fucking love atlas' music

"i'm so worried 
          when i see you leave 
          'cause nobody knows 
          if you'll make it home or not 
          i'm so worried 
          when i see you leave 
          'cause nobody knows 
          if you'll make it home 
          
          and maybe it was my fault 
          so afraid, slam my fist into the drywall 
          so high, i see the crimson in your eyeballs 
          i just hope you pick the phone up when i call 
          and maybe it's the highway 
          but something's feeling really fucking weird tonight, eh 
          i just hope you listen to me now when i say 
          i'm not ready to lose you"

"I see the future now
          Got too distracted by the present
          To remember that my head is
          Not a vehicle for fear"

"I used to stand so tall
          They used to be so proud
          I couldn't even hide
          Myself in the crowd
          But somehow it's now when everything's changed
          I'm wondering why every day feels the same
          I'm searching and looking for something to say
          But really it should be "No, I'm not okay"
          I've been trying so hard to find my escape
          But really I don't know how long that will take
          
          Today or tomorrow
          I'll swim in my sorrow
          That I could use a smile
          That I could share or borrow
          But secretly I'll keep it just for myself
          And please don't come closer I don't want your help
          I'll figure this out, on my own
          I'll stay with these feelings at home and alone"

"Put up a facade and you saw right through it
          Told me i was worthless but i already knew it
          I don't care how i die as long as i do it
          Please close your eyes, i don't wanna put you through it
          At all
          
          Hair in my eyes, i can't see straight
          Drugs in my veins makes me knees shake
          Baby, won't you hold my hand while i limp through the hall
          Feeling trapped in my mind, need an escape
          
          Every day is just a mess of depressive episodes
          Panic in my room over never letting go
          Singing songs you've never heard about that seven-letter word
          This anxiety gon' place me in the wreckage in the snow
          
          I'm tired, so tired all the time
          This stress on my back's been severing my spine
          No, i'm never doing fine"