Hey, just read your info and I just wanted to say to never give up. I had a driend that was like you, but with the help of her love ones she got through, though sometimes she get sucidal thoughts, but someone will always be there for her.Life is hard, but it is also beautiful. There are many people who think about you and care for you even if they don't show it they do. I like to think about life as a challenge, at times it might seem impossible to keep on going but you can do it. Once you get pass this challenge you get to see the best things in life. I just wanted to say that I think of people that go through what you are going through have to be the strongest people I could have ever meet. They go through all this bad things in the world and even when they think they can't go on, they prove themselves wrong and keep going. If you want to talk about anything I am here to hear you out.