sadderdaazee
i meekly remember today's date a year ago. my heart was a wretched thing, eyes akin. tear stained cheeks and water clumped lashes, dim gaze so lost of life you'd look and think to yourself if i have a soul or am just a mere bag of bones and flesh.
i felt so doomed, so lost and done. every thread of hope of getting into law school felt soulless akin to myself; hell any college for the matter.
it has been a year, exactly a year since i had broken in a way i never had or have before or after. sometimes at windy nights that fleet in with the soothing rainy breeze, binging songs i would listen to a year ago, memories friends with the scent of my old perfume and music.
during life's haste and hurry, i forget to be true to myself. forget how i am living what i so dearly begged for.
lali a year ago would look at me, wonder if i'm even real. she'd be disappointed, but would acknowledge the growth nonetheless, because she's know how to cherish, unlike the current lali. she knows how to pause for a still moment, take a deep breath and let everything run array. maybe in the chaos of getting what i dreamed of, i forgot how to be silent with myself.
god save me
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