Iguana (don't ask)

Hey there, old friend (dunno if I can even call myself that). It's literally been 5 years since I've been on this godforsaken app but I randomly decided to open it today and saw someone reply to a comment I made on a poem-fic you'd written all those years ago. And God,,, have I looked for you bc those comments I left on your fic are the single most horrible things I have ever said to a person in my life and while yes, it was out of the complete ignorance of a 13 year old girl who had no idea wtf was wrong with life yet, it haunts me, even now, five years later and I swore that if I ever found you or the fic again I'd apologize because I truly regret them and am sorry. You were going through a tough time of your life and I just thought I could funny my way through your pouring your heart and pain out. I'm years older, years wiser, years ready to offer this apology years too late and I remember you being one of the most special people I met on this app that made me feel loved back then. This is years late but I hope you're doing well, I hope your life is just right at this point and even if it isn't I want you to know that I actually think about you (a bit too often to be healthy lol guilt) and I hope for only the best for you. I am genuinely very glad, impressed, proud and all the good words that you're still up and running through this dumb marathon called life, especially despite everything. Should have told you this all those years ago but: it will be well. Good people like you get good things,  even when it takes time, it comes eventually. <3
          
          You probably don't remember me but anyways, thank you for the wonderful experiences our friendship gave me on this app. Really played a huggeeeeeee part in who I am today and who id like to be from now on (a better person, I hope). Miss you lots! x

hi im back on here for the annual update lmao
          
          -im single again
          -ive learned to cook 
          -everything ive posted to here is still on hiatus
          -qatar sucks
          -i can legally drink in the usa
          
          hope everyone's 2023 is better than 22

....guess who's engaged?
          
          me!!! me is engaged!!

ive been so dead omg i basically forgot wattpad existed im so sorry 
          
          life is happening and oh boy im not keeping up

update i have a concussion (:

damn i really have been dead on here lately haven't i
          
          oh boy where to start
          
          -tomorrow (friday) is the last day of my semester
          -ive been packing to move out of my dorm room for the summer while juggling final exams
          -it's raining hard so hauling stuff to my car is Not Going Well™
          -im moving into an apartment with my bf for the summer so i can stay away from my parents
          -we've been together just under 6 months 
          -still don't have a job
          -but im just about done with my second year of college!
          -(hopefully my grades are ok)
          
          
          so there's my update. how are y'all doing?
          
          im still answering dms as available, my notifications are just dead at this point so im sorry if yall aren't getting quick responses
          
          love you!
          -jj

eyyyy im officially 20
          N handmade me a popup card without adhesives
          my parents got me a special pair of earrings
          AND im actually gonna be doing something self care related and shower and wear a cute dress

Beverly Cleary died on Friday and I'm actually sobbing :( 

today is my bf's birthday and next week we'll have been together for 3 months, yes college is still kicking my ass but at least im alive and kicking. sorry for basically ghosting wattpad im only ever on here every few days on the off chance i get a dm

it's 2021 and at this point im not holding out my hopes for it to be better than whatever the fuck 2020 was supposed to be.
          
          fast facts about 2021 me:
          - no i am not dead (don't lose hope yet though)
          - currently on winter break
          - still 19 for a couple months
          - my fanfic remains on hiatus until further notice
          - yes i still love harry potter
          - yes i still hate jkr and cursed child
          - no i don't have time to read stories or books i barely have time to read my school textbooks
          - depression still sucks ass and my motivation is lower than the temperature
          - still not on wattpad often but will answer any dms in the order they were received, probably within a day