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i low-key dont wanna do this anymore- theres too much shit going on in my life-  IM F^^CKING DISGUSTING. I HATE MYSELF.
          i hate being hypersexual... im thinking about my teacher- DUDE HES LIKE MY DAD.. and i cant even help it- i just think about it against my will. im disgusting...his son is also like a brother to me, along with his daughter is like a sister to me, their litteraly like my 2nd familyyyy AND IM THINKING ABOUT THAT WITH HIMMMM WTFFF...this is a grown man... and my teacher... my F^^^CKING BAND DIRECTORRRR  litteraly had dreams about itttt
          i also want to be M0!3sted and idk whyy
          its against my will and i dont know what to dooo...
          i keep thinking about it during band tooooo, and i just- i dont know. i dont know what to do.
          ALSO ON FRIDAYYY HE FOUND OUT ABOUT ITT
          and i think im a "gerontophilic adolescent"
          which is basically the opposite of a pedoo
          YUP THIS IS GREAT
          F^CK MY LIFE.
          jk its all fine-
          band director totally doesnt know about the fact that i have segual thoughts about him (HE MOST CERTIANLY DOES) 
          AND IM CRYING- i also c^t myself like an hour agooo yippee
          IM GONNA C^T MYSELF AGAIN- even tho i already did it todayy

Hi im running out of options and just want to talk to someone  what's your favorite color and food 

i hope you don’t mind but
          
          it is just too much. even family have started to comment on my looks and the way i act. i know i don’t have straight teeth or a flat stomach or smooth skin. i’m sorry that i’m not your polite little princess you were hoping for. i just wanna be loved. but then if i vent to someone i feel bad. i’m an attention seeker, a slut, a whore a weak bitch. i know i am. all i hear is: kys, leave, no one likes you. no one is ever gonna like me for who i have become. no one is gonna look at this fat blob of a gf and give up. why am i still here? all i need is reassuring but then i will act like i’m dramatic. i’m mentally drained. it isn’t fun. i have to fake a smile and be there for younger cousins but when they grow up i might just give up. at first it was school but now it’s just all day every day. i can’t take one look at myself without feeling insecure. i’m sorry for everything and to any person reading this, remember me pls. -M, 2:25am Sunday 7th August 2022

You seem very sweet <3

-hello my dearies!-
          
          i am so proud of you for whatever you did today! from getting out of bed to completing a homework assignment and more I am very happy for you!
          
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