I haven't been on wattpad for more than a year and half now but i had to come back after this. Please tell me this is a joke of some sorts. I mean i woke up yesterday and opened instagram in a fever haze and that's the first thing i saw. Couldn't even believe it until i googled his name and right next to the born thing it showed died on 16 october 2024. I can't believe it even until now. I mean i was reading a fanfic on ao3 just the night before and liam was such a huge part of it. I can't even read it now. Their songs would never be the same. And like i just saw louis' story and the lilo water fights are breaking my heart rn. I was supposed to tell my kids about these 5 boys and show them pictures of them as they were grey and old, not tell them that one of them died so young. I've always wanted a bear hug from him, he always looked so warm and kind to me and it kills me that i never can now. Them assembling on one of their own's funeral wasn't the reunion i wanted nor imagined. And people making jokes about his death rn makes me so sick. It feels like a core island from inside out just crumbled in me. I can't even begin imagining telling my 13 year old self who was obsessed with these 5 boys. And all this hate he was getting recently, it kills me to think he went thinking that he wasn't loved. I can't even comprehend the pain everyone who knew him must be feeling rn. Rest in peace Lima Bear, you will be FOREVER missed.
