samii_2146

Today's my birfdayyy!!! I turn 15 today but don't worry new update should be up either Friday or this weekend at one point. love you guys!!!<3

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(part 2 continued)
          Mommy, mommy...don't I count?
          I guess not. Because of you, i was the chance that the world could've had but never knew.
          I'm sorry I gave you the fear from my hands...my wretched, wretched hands of destruction and what they could do.
          Mommy I'm sorry...

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abortion poem part 2: My little hands of destruction
          Mommy, mommy...you killed me, for my hands.
          Mommy you killed me because you were afraid of what my hands would do.
          But I don't understand, I thought I would do good.
          I thought you wanted me because I was a chance.
          Mommy I was the chance that you never gave the world because you took away mine.
          Mommy I thought I would be the most precious to you, even more than time.
          Mommy, mommy ...tell me please, why did you kill me?
          I could have been a doctor, I could have been a fire fighter, I could have been a priest, I could have been a pilot, I could have cured cancer, mommy!
          I could've cure you...
          Mommy, mommy I'm strong.
          Stronger than you think and my hands... my little hands of destruction is why you got rid of me... well mommy I'm sorry!
          I'm sorry I couldn't please you,
          Mommy I'm sorry that you couldn't give me life so I could cure you.
          Mommy I'm sorry that I haven't saved lives.
          Mommy I'm sorry that I can't breathe! And I'm saying sorry because it was my hands of destruction to blame.
          You got rid of me because of them.
          But mommy, I'm sorry to think that you have completely crossed the line to another side that I didn't even know existed.
          But mommy, I know you lay wondering what ever happened to your beautiful after for all I ever was, was a happily ever disaster.
          Mommy I'm sorry...
          I'm sorry I tried to help and didn't keep to myself, like everyone else.
          Mommy, mommy explain to me, Why did you wait so long?
          You could've killed me when i didn't have toes, or my full grown head,
          Mommy you could've killed me when my hands still haven't grown in yet...but you didn't.
          Mommy, mommy I have hands! Doesn't that count?
          I guess not b/c i will never be able to wrap my entire little hand around one of your fingers.
          Mommy, mommy i have a nose! Doesn't that count?
          I guess not b/c of you I will never be able to use it.
          Mommy, mommy I have a heart! Doesn't that count?
          i guess not b/c it will never be able to beat for you
          (continued)

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abortion poem part 1: Peek-a-boo
          waiting for an answer while im inside
          daddy says hes sick of it, mommy starts to cry
          she looks down at her big belly that she has to show,
          knowing that i only got 3 months to go,
          still forming almost done,
          mommy tells me she likes to lie down and feel the sun,
          daddy comes back still angry and drags mommy out of the house.
          She wants to have me, to have me out.
          daddy just wants to get rid of me.
          pulling up to the hospital, there's a deathly smell, don't you see?
          he makes her say 'yes' for she is afraid,
          that if she does not agree that he'll pound me away.
          finally out, but not to breathe,
          mommy is sad, but daddy is relieved.
          but how can he?! when i haven't even had the chance to speak!
          mommy has the blues,
          Peek-a-Boo
          I thought I would finally be able to see you...
          (sorry about all the errors)

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"when you told me you would never leave,  but lied... i stood strong. 
          Now that you have come back, i realized where i stand and where i belong.
          No! no i will not harm and you say that everything is not what it seems,
          but in reality you just wanted me part of your cruel horrid rhyme scheme.
          So now that the light has shown, i want you to leave me alone.
          i know who i am, i am my own song,
          i dont have to prove my self to anyone..." ---heres something to keep you going if you had a rough day. i promise things will get better but you just gotta live long enough to see it. i love you guys! -Sam