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I want to get back to writing so badly. I used to get spurs of inspiration and actually thought what was happening was normal. Turns out what I was having were "manic episodes" where I'd get so fixated on doing something that I would do it for hours, or until I lost interest. I pulled all-nighters a few times while having those episodes without knowing what was really going on. I'll get so hyper-focused that literal 8 hours will pass without me realizing it- no food or water, and no bathroom breaks. I had an episode two nights ago where I was working on a project from 8:30 PM or so to 7 in the morning. I feel like I was only doing it for maybe three hours, but before I know it the sun was coming up. Time just stops for me. I'm 22 and never knew this about myself until a few months ago. I'm on medication for it now, so the episodes are much, much less frequent. That's one of the reasons I've not been on my upload streak.
The second reason is I figured out just recently that I have sleep apnea, so I've been dealing with that. I've basically been sleeping almost all day, every day. When night comes, I still don't have the motivation to do much of this stuff.
So yeah, I've been on the decline haha. I have so many medical problems that it's not even a surprise anymore. But anyways, I just wanted to give an explanation for why I've gone silent. I genuinely want to continue, but it's just not as easy as said. Hope you guys can bear with me. Thank you and goodnight <3