For the people who are struggling... here is a little poem for you...

The eyes of yours reminded me of my new self,
Improved and Wily, nothing ever made more sense,
to me when you beamed, at your latest objective,
of making me beg for your love and affection,

My heart feeling blade, across it's palisade,
Never felt so strange, difficult to persuade,
got played so I prayed but the world had betrayed,
Arranged for me to live life in dismay and to decay.

Never forget, boy, where you come from, Reform,
Transform, to smash and tear down, those dumb norms,
who pulled down your mother, 6 ft in the cold ground,
don't spare any killer, ensure to make a rebound!
Allure them to you, impost a little kindness,
Sweet-talk, tempt them with your politeness,
Slide in them brains, adopt to their ways, 
Till they designate you, as "Your highness!"

Spineless, is what they are my sweet darling,
Sweep through their little ambitions, and pipe dreams,
Torment & pester 'em when they sleep soundly,
Turn their dreams into fucking nightmares...

The peace you get when you look at their faces, The places
you wanted to go when you had braces, Phases
you went through to put 'em in their places,
The praises you receive and your mama's proud gazes.

Don't worry, little baby, it's alright and all fine,
You are not a cruel monster, but a pure divine,
Believe in yourself, let go of your fright,
Strong and Free as you take your flight.