@Sandia_sand I wish you and your family well, I may not know you very well, but if it helps you even the slightest, you're not alone, I was very close to my grandparents and they both passed away a couple years ago, I never had the chance to say goodbye to them, so I would consider you lucky that you're getting the chance to say goodbye and spend time with your aunt, sure it may be hard knowing that she's going to be leaving this world soon and there's nothing you can do about it, at least you know that it's coming, I personally think that it's a bit worse when you don't see it coming