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@Chanlix74 thank you so much for the kind words, they definitely made my day ahead now its currently 6:30 am where i am, im reading this with an emotional state but its a happy one all thanks to your sympathetic kind words hon, thank you so much, big hug from you sis here as well❤️❤️
            im also so sorry to hear about you health conditions, i hope what they said about the future turns out to be completely opposite and you eventually recover and your body and cells work their best not to lead that way, i genuinely pray for you from bottom of my heart to eventually get better, but please dont worry about the future much, just manifest the best in your heart for yourself, trust me it’ll work, ive been through a lot and jusy some simple even sometimes it was just “fake it til you make it” delulu beliefs about myself was all that made me survive some hard days and nights… i totally hope we get to experience better things in life so we eventually forget these hardships we once experienced… thank you again for the virtual listening, im also always here if you ever needed to vent, dont ever hesitate okay?❤️❤️ much love, thanks for the ending words too, i hope i really matter and i am as useful as i like to believe…

@sankopay … Firstly .. sending a huge hug for you. I’m sorry that life hasn’t been kind. It seldom is to good people.. the people who deserve it. They say life never gives us more than we can handle but that’s bullsh*t to me. Sometimes life hits us like a freight train and we get left scrambling for the pieces of the person we used to be. I have a spinal injury  that’s left my life in a crappy way. Different situations for us both but the same result if you will. I blew out the very bottom disc on my spine and herniated the one above it. Had surgery on it that went wrong and has left me unable to walk far or do a lot of the physical stuff I used to do. I literally went thru the 5 stages of grief when they told me there was nothing more they could do and that a wheelchair is in my future. I hit all 5 stages of grief over it and it certainly took a few years for it to sink in. I wish I could take some of your pain from you. You seem like the sweetest person and I know you’ve been very sweet to me in the comments.  I will always listen if you need an ear. Please take good care of yourself.. you matter in this world. 

@Chanlix74 oh im so glad for you! hope you thrive better in your personal love life, well between you and me, im a bit old i guess, 27 already and well havent moved on from that one huge breakup after 7.5 years you know! i dont think i ever will, i resonate with this story in particular because i feel exactly like this fictional felix, except i dont drown myself in senseless sex or alcohol.. i just simply exist and well my whole personality has diminished you know? i used to be outgoing and extroverted and now i’ve turned into this senseless stiffened uninterested person who doesnt find stuff i used to enjoy much enjoyable anymore… and its the worst! trust me i could weep my life away if i was to open up my story properly… im just used to shitty unlucky stuff happen to me yk? while i really want an exciting up-and-down drama like this story in my love life especially but then, as i said its just like a ghost story mostly rather than a romantic one lol

@Chanlix74 awwww we sisters from another mister for now and i need it indeed, need it so bad hon❤️ thank you  big squishy almost bone-breaking () hug from me as well

@Sankopay .. I’d be honoured to have a sister from Iran. Here’s your daily hug from one adult to another  ( just imagine a big squishy hug). 

@Chanlix74 aww sorry if it took me long to reply back thank you so much hon… yup unfortunately i feel like im always gonna be descrimintaed no matter how hard i try, and it feels so bad and lonely at times, i know im an adult and should manage alone but the past years, aka my yong adult years have been tough due to some reasons and i feel mostly numb and empty now, i cant help the void yk? but thanks for the kind words, i hope it gets better for people like us… and the sister part was so sweet, im pouting endearingly as im writing this, thank you im honored, yup, you have a sister from iran if you also want to! ❤️ many hugs and kisses, imma message you too hon! have a great day/night ahead wheneever you read this!

@sankopay I'll start reading when I can

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@sankopay … Go for it in both