sanreadsatmidnight

Hello everyone, I'm Sanyukta. I'm an Indian. I'm a female. I'm my parents' daughter. And I'm an aspiring modern, independent and successful woman.
          	
          	Although I don't think that this aspiration will ever be true. I'll always be dependent on someone because of my fear. For my safety.
          	I'll always be on call while traveling in a cab. I'll also want a man to walk me home at night. I'll always hide behind another colleague if I ever face a creepy colleague at my workplace.
          	
          	I've always wanted to live in a nice 2 BHK apartment someday. One bedroom for me, and one for my kid (a pet dog that I'll adopt, a golden retriever ig). But I don't know if I would. What if a man violates me, knowing I live alone.
          	
          	How would I stand up for right in the future, knowing it might lead to my ruins? I guess I'll just mind my own business, and stay safe with shame and guilt, rather than face being harassed.
          	
          	I wrote a poem last night, and a part of it goes like:
          	"Shall I just hide in a shell?
          	Not talk to people, and stay away from hell
          	But I was told to rise and soar high 
          	What about the dreams, to bring myself to light?
          	
          	How would a woman, want to be empowered?
          	If they fear, of being raped by power?
          	Is just existing an invitation to men
          	To force and assault us in their den?"
          	
          	In this male dominated world, I don't want to live. Because I don't have the safety and security I need. I don't want to rise high as I don't want attention to myself.
          	
          	Signing off.
          	Sanyukta 
          	
          	PS. I'm always dependent on my luck for my safety.

the_elysianmuse

@sanreadsatmidnight it broke a part of me, realising the pain and agony she had to go through. Her soul is not still at peace. The fear of travelling alone has consumed me now. And it's not hidden that the hope of getting justice is close to nil but I pray for her soul to be at peace at least one day. The girl in me weeps for her assault. And the higher authorities( let's not talk about it). The world has not done justice to you.
          	  Forgive us. 
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sanreadsatmidnight

Hello everyone, I'm Sanyukta. I'm an Indian. I'm a female. I'm my parents' daughter. And I'm an aspiring modern, independent and successful woman.
          
          Although I don't think that this aspiration will ever be true. I'll always be dependent on someone because of my fear. For my safety.
          I'll always be on call while traveling in a cab. I'll also want a man to walk me home at night. I'll always hide behind another colleague if I ever face a creepy colleague at my workplace.
          
          I've always wanted to live in a nice 2 BHK apartment someday. One bedroom for me, and one for my kid (a pet dog that I'll adopt, a golden retriever ig). But I don't know if I would. What if a man violates me, knowing I live alone.
          
          How would I stand up for right in the future, knowing it might lead to my ruins? I guess I'll just mind my own business, and stay safe with shame and guilt, rather than face being harassed.
          
          I wrote a poem last night, and a part of it goes like:
          "Shall I just hide in a shell?
          Not talk to people, and stay away from hell
          But I was told to rise and soar high 
          What about the dreams, to bring myself to light?
          
          How would a woman, want to be empowered?
          If they fear, of being raped by power?
          Is just existing an invitation to men
          To force and assault us in their den?"
          
          In this male dominated world, I don't want to live. Because I don't have the safety and security I need. I don't want to rise high as I don't want attention to myself.
          
          Signing off.
          Sanyukta 
          
          PS. I'm always dependent on my luck for my safety.

the_elysianmuse

@sanreadsatmidnight it broke a part of me, realising the pain and agony she had to go through. Her soul is not still at peace. The fear of travelling alone has consumed me now. And it's not hidden that the hope of getting justice is close to nil but I pray for her soul to be at peace at least one day. The girl in me weeps for her assault. And the higher authorities( let's not talk about it). The world has not done justice to you.
            Forgive us. 
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sanreadsatmidnight

Ik it's late for the greeting, but maybe it's the right time for the message. There have been some friends in our lives who were the most important person to them at that time. And there are many of us, who weren't important to them. We were disappointed and hurt, but still held onto that hope and delusion like they won't do this next time, they might be busy, they didn't want me to feel that. And then finally realised that we're not what they're for us. 
          
          No, we're not stupid. Yes, we were naive, but isn't everyone at some point? We all grow, and become better day by day. We shed off our naivety, and become smarter day by day. And we understand that we need to balance our IQs and EQs.
          
          Happy friendship day to all, especially the ones who had their hearts broken by their most important friends, and have healed/ are trying to heal it. I hope you find a great friend in yourself.
          
          Love,
          Sanyukta

sanreadsatmidnight

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ExclusiveVibes_03

Ig, I needed this *crying emoji*
            Thank you yukta(⁠。⁠♡⁠‿⁠♡⁠。⁠)
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