I know things are really hard for you right now and that your so called "friends" aren't owning up to their part of it, but there are good ones who are with you. What's happening now isn't your fault and you don't have to feel bad. You've been hurting for a long time and continued to bear it to this day. You can let go of some of it sis.
C.Q., Angel, Sara, Lil Z are here for you. You looked after us for a long time; please let us be there for you. I know I'm not physically with you, but know that I love you and so the others.
So let whoever hurt you complain.
Let them cry.
Let them whine.
Let them drag whoever the hell they want in this fight.
Let them cause more drama.
If they're your real friends, they'll fix themselves. If they don't then they don't deserve you.
You've been in pain long enough. Please, please, please...don't hide from us.
Love you! XOXOXOXO