xXl0v3rzR0CKXx
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youre right! it was never about the pain you caused me! but that was part of it! i just. i want to know why man. we were the best fucking buds and then you just fucked it up and i just. was it me? did i fuck up somewhere in the friendship? why in the fucking world would you think a 15 year old should see that. i just. man i miss you sometimes but you were a real dick yknow. i know i left on the WORST fucking terms which i apologize profusely for, and yeah it was immature of me to write that shit on here but i just. man. i wanna know where it went wrong i wanna know WHY you did what you did. it makes me fucking sob at night because i *genuinely* enjoyed our friendship. is that fucked up? well touch on that in another episode. but seriously man if youre still alive and have access to the internet, please just tell me why man. thats all im asking. and do NOT call ruth if you do. i am by no means forcing you to respond but it would be appreciated. im sorry if i caused you any grief by the way, that was apart of me that i would rather hide away. but srsly man what the fuck. i can give you my discord if need be to see if theres anything we can "talk out" signed, ROWAN.
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@xXl0v3rzR0CKXx hi rowan, im more than willing to discuss this matter here, but to keep it concise, i did what i did because a. i was desperate for a relationship and everything that came with it, and b. at the time i lived with someone that encouraged the behavior, someone who i respected and looked up to, who is now a mortal enemy of mine. as for ruth, they're not at fault here. i committed evil acts, taking advantage of a situation that I really didnt have much business being in to begin with. honestly, when i had received that confession from ruth about their feelings, I should've ended that right then and there, or even better, not engage with people several years my junior to begin with.