It sounds like you are going through an incredibly difficult time, and it is completely valid to feel overwhelmed and exhausted when life feels like it’s falling apart. Please consider reaching out for help.
If you are in the US or Canada, you can call or text 988 anytime. In the UK, you can call 111. If you are in Indonesia, you can contact 119 ext. 8 for mental health support services. These services are free, confidential, and available 24/7. Please reach out for help.
When life feels unbearable, it is often because of a combination of pain and suffering, the extra weight we put on ourselves on top of that pain. While you cannot always avoid pain, there are ways to manage the suffering, and you do not have to carry it alone.