sayonaraeren
havent been on here in awhile! i lowkey miss being seven years younger and my only concern was whether or not i had time to read wattpad stories before bed (¬`‸´¬)
sayonaraeren
sayonaraeren
thought id have a nice today with my younger brother (19), since we were home alone and had been on a walk together, but not long after we came home, he had a really bad seizure.
its the second time, but was traumatised for me than the first. i wont share, but it was bad, and i was alone with him for twenty minutes before my neighbor was came over.
he is thankfully okay, other than his head, and is getting a scan today. i hope this is an eye opener for the doctors that didnt believe hes epileptic or that something is wrong with him other than his benign tumor …
please keep my brother in your thoughts :(
sayonaraeren
@dewdropps thank u for ur sweet message. his ct scan looked normal, so we are still without answer :( luckily he says he feels a lot better than he did after his first seizure, and thats what is keeping me from spiraling completely. we are only a year apart in age, but he will always be my baby brother, so it has naturally been hard :c
dewdropps
Sending you lots of thoughts and luck on getting a diagnosis for your brother ⭐️ I hope he can rest and feel better soon. And I hope you’re both surrounded by people who support and love you
sayonaraeren
ive lowkey been neglecting wattpad for ao3 recently… i should be ashamed. wattpad was my first lovah
sayonaraeren
was upset about my dog who got put down two weeks ago and it started snowing. id like to think its her sending me a sign that shes okay. she was a white dog :)
sayonaraeren
@dewdropps it went well! i had my oral exam today and it went better than expected too ^•^
dewdropps
That’s actually so cute (੭ ˊ^ˋ)੭ she probably thought you needed to have a bit of fun after finishing your finals ! How did that go by the way? You got your results ??
sayonaraeren
@dewdropps always :) only downside was that she hated when we had to blow dry the clumps of snow off her lol
sayonaraeren
free from the shackles of my written exam. i feel #reborn
sayonaraeren
@dewdropps thank uuu! i think it did but i dont get any results until my oral exam on tuesdayyy (⋟﹏⋞) after that i have until the week after that before my next semester starts
sayonaraeren
im gonna scream if wattpad logs me out on my phone one more time
dewdropps
hiii ᯓ★ just checking in to see how you’re doing ! I hope you’ve had some time to rest and enjoy the stuff you love, have a great day
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sayonaraeren
@dewdropps oh definitely. i honestly dont have energy to deal with uni ever, but at least its not in person :’) i try my best! that sounds really exciting, but can also understand why u would be stressed. happy early birthday! i hope u have a really wonderful day and ur big party is everything u expect! ◜ᴗ◝
dewdropps
i can imagine how hard it is, uni felt like the last thing I wanted to focus on while dealing with grief but you gotta do what you gotta do. I hope you can find small ways to make your days better, one day at a time and that’ll be more than enough
My birthday is coming up so I’ve been prepping non stop for the big party ! So excited but also very much stressed >ᴗ<
sayonaraeren
awh, dew! hello hello. im doing okay! been trying to pull myself together to write my exam paper, but otherwise have been feeling better.
how are u doing! and likewise ◜ᴗ◝
sayonaraeren
lets say my mental health isnt the greatest rn… do i dye my hair black, pierce my lips or get a tattoo? ^•^
sayonaraeren
@dewdropps aw thank u, that means so much. im a huge animal person so it hit harder than i expected, but i have a good support system. thank u again, u are so sweet ❤️❤️
dewdropps
@sayonaraeren it breaks my heart to hear that. I really hope you find comfort in knowing she’s resting peacefully now. Sending you a warm hug ❤️ remember to take some time to care for yourself during tough times like these
sayonaraeren
@dewdropps it was okay! bit of both, honestly. that sounds really cool ^•^ im happy it made u feel better. honestly? right now it would be my dog’s name (her kanji). we had to put her down wednesday and my father, whos fluent in japanese, named her ↕️
sayonaraeren
guys if we go much longer without shirtless, hair down choso, i might spiral
sayonaraeren
watching the ending of attack on titan again for an edit and i am actually about to throw up