I promise, no matter how long it takes it will, and If your freinds dont care about you then they dont deserve to be your freinds, you should find new freinds who love you for who you are and dont critsize you when there is nothing to criticize, I promise you're perfect, tell yourself that every day and I promise you'll believe it, it is the truth you are, you're perfect, even if I've never met you i know you're perfect, everyone's perfect, weather they're fat, skinny, slow, fast, black, white. No matter what, they are perfect. Just like you, so please please please dont ever try to commit suicide, gosh I'm already crying thinking about you taking your life, you have so so so much to live for, gosh some people are disgusting. Absolutely disgusting, making you think you're not enough and not even feeling bad, like how, they've put you down enough to the point where you think dying, never ever living again, never experiencing life, is the only way out, its absolutely disgusting. If this doesnt help, which I hope it will help at least a little but, there are people you can call and people you can talk to, no matter how scared you are you should be more afraid to die, cause I care about you and I'm sure many other people do you just have not found them yet, so please dont ever try suicide again, cause you are enough, you are perfect, you are enough, you are perfect, I promise on God himself that you are perfect.