scrmbld_hrts

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Lately I've had no effort to do anything, but I want to get anything done, and I have gone to Youtube and random games to distract myself. I constantly want to cry but cannot shed any tears whatsoever, and it is really messing with my mind, as crying makes me feel better. My sleep scheduled is completely fucked up and I cant fall asleep until around 7 AM. My only IRL friend feels like the only one I can trust right now and I'm too scared to talk to anyone who can actually help me other than my school counselor, but even then I rarely tell them any information without feeling anxious. I cannot sit in silence or in the dark without feeling unsafe because it makes me feel like I'm in danger. the only things I'm able to read all the way through are fanfics because my attention span has become so fucking short and none or the genres that I used to enjoy seem that nice even though I like other things like movies in the same genres. One of the only times I have opened up to my mother about my constant stress I was yelled at because I had loads of late work and it kept building up at the time. I feel like I'm the worst at everything compared to others and that they are always judging me. I have been constantly questioning my sexuality and I currently believe I am Ace/Demisexual and Polyromantic. I just want to curl up in a ball and be forgotten by everyone so that I don't have to deal with my feelings ever again.
          	
          	I apologize about jumping from topic to topic but I needed this more than I thought.

thegaysalemwitch

@scrmbld_hrts You should go to someone who can help you even if you are scared. More often than not, you will feel SO much better after talking to someone like that. (I know that first hand.) You are not the worst at anything, not even close, I also know that first hand because I see you at school and you are still your amazing self. Oh yeah, and the feeling that everyone is constantly judging you has a name, too. It's called the "imaginary audience", and most of the time, no one is actually judging you for anything.
          	  
          	  I feel anxious A LOT too, and I always either talk to my IRL friends (you, Gabi, Myley) or talk/roleplay with my online friends. You could try that, as it always makes me feel a lot better.
          	  
          	  And don't you dare try to make me forget you because IT WILL NEVER WORK
          	  
          	  If you need to talk, PM me, comment on my profile, or email me. I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!!!!!!
          	  
          	  don't forget that you have multiple people who really care about you (I know for a fact that you have at least 3)
          	  
          	  I love you so much ❤️❤️❤️
          	  
          	  Seriously, and if you need advice or to vent, just email or PM me, or comment on my profile.
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scrmbld_hrts

this message may be offensive 
Lately I've had no effort to do anything, but I want to get anything done, and I have gone to Youtube and random games to distract myself. I constantly want to cry but cannot shed any tears whatsoever, and it is really messing with my mind, as crying makes me feel better. My sleep scheduled is completely fucked up and I cant fall asleep until around 7 AM. My only IRL friend feels like the only one I can trust right now and I'm too scared to talk to anyone who can actually help me other than my school counselor, but even then I rarely tell them any information without feeling anxious. I cannot sit in silence or in the dark without feeling unsafe because it makes me feel like I'm in danger. the only things I'm able to read all the way through are fanfics because my attention span has become so fucking short and none or the genres that I used to enjoy seem that nice even though I like other things like movies in the same genres. One of the only times I have opened up to my mother about my constant stress I was yelled at because I had loads of late work and it kept building up at the time. I feel like I'm the worst at everything compared to others and that they are always judging me. I have been constantly questioning my sexuality and I currently believe I am Ace/Demisexual and Polyromantic. I just want to curl up in a ball and be forgotten by everyone so that I don't have to deal with my feelings ever again.
          
          I apologize about jumping from topic to topic but I needed this more than I thought.

thegaysalemwitch

@scrmbld_hrts You should go to someone who can help you even if you are scared. More often than not, you will feel SO much better after talking to someone like that. (I know that first hand.) You are not the worst at anything, not even close, I also know that first hand because I see you at school and you are still your amazing self. Oh yeah, and the feeling that everyone is constantly judging you has a name, too. It's called the "imaginary audience", and most of the time, no one is actually judging you for anything.
            
            I feel anxious A LOT too, and I always either talk to my IRL friends (you, Gabi, Myley) or talk/roleplay with my online friends. You could try that, as it always makes me feel a lot better.
            
            And don't you dare try to make me forget you because IT WILL NEVER WORK
            
            If you need to talk, PM me, comment on my profile, or email me. I AM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU!!!!!!!
            
            don't forget that you have multiple people who really care about you (I know for a fact that you have at least 3)
            
            I love you so much ❤️❤️❤️
            
            Seriously, and if you need advice or to vent, just email or PM me, or comment on my profile.
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