mijaa💜

Hi! Mind to followback?
          Jemputlah baca karya ii saya! I need your vote and comment too❤️

I never thought I'll ever come back here.

I miss to write in here☹️

I would like to revise and edit the crappy chapters where my younger self wrote back then...but I wasn't able to do so right now since I'm so busy...
          
          I know I'm lacking but please understand that I really try to do my very best.
          
          I know writing isn't my field but I just love writing. It gives me happiness. I didn't write for fame. I write because I want people to know my story since I developed some true events in my short fics. I want to challenge myself writing and communicate in languange that I don't familiar with.
          
          Please be understanding. I don't want to ask much from you. It doesn't matter if you aren't my silent readers, the voters, the commentators, but if you ever read my story, I want to thank you all and pull you into a big warm hug.
          
          Have a good night you all! 

Here is like a brand new world for me...no one I know is here...but the loneliness is still chasing after me, accompany me still. 
          
          
          It makes me suffocated to a point that I just want to jump and splatter... 

How does my words eat you inside out?

Writing has been my passion. An activity that make me smile and feel at ease. But can you believe that when I'm in the middle of writing, I lost track and end up feeling devastated because what I'm writing atm will never happen in real life. I've been writing short story since 2015 and 85% of it are from my experience. I know I should hold onto reality but reality give so much unbearable pain that make me want to write and dream more. But I wonder now, what if I can't write and dream anymore? What will happen to me and my dream? "I want to stop writing..." this thought has crossed my minds million times,  I've been stop writing but my brain won't stop working onto dreams. Life is so painful that somehow I had to give up my everything because life won't leave me alone.
          
          8:10 pm
          26 April 2019
          
          :-  it's raining and thoughts are running in my mind

I'm in the middle of writing and editing when bighit dropped a bomb. Now I can't sleep. Everything in the video was so good that the blonde Namjoon snatch my sanity. Good job bro!
          
          And I'm writing angst AGAIN and Taehyung is my character this time.
          
          Istg someone needs to teach me how to write a very good happy ending because I suck at it.

I don't feel motivated to write more because I think it wasn't good enough. My books aren't good enough.

Only two chapters left for crush...who's expecting a happy ending? Or sad ending?
          
          
          
          
          I need to take a nap right now so I'm going to update when I wake up....see yaaaa