Selenur Bread

Why is having a crush so weird? Like, yeah it's annoying to have a person that you like so much and blah blah blah, but on the bright side, I put effort everyday into more self care to look better for another girl?!?! Yes it's distracting but it's also motivation???? 

the urge to make daybreak animatics because my songfics works better in a cinematic visual setting

temporarily taking down the ghost book for editing and sorting out stuff, and hoping to republish it when it is completely complete

guess who chucked their phone across backstage during a rehearsal cause she got last place in dti?

HAPPY HALLOWEEN!!!
          
          hope y'all enjoy your time and candy, and take care of yourself<3
          
          A teacher at my school dressed up as skibidi toilet with a bag of Rizz and jumpscared me in my class. It's quite horrifying cause it's not even a joke to her she was quite serious about it. Yes she took a toilet seat and put it over her head. 
          
          Love my school so much....

guys, how do i explain to people that making OC is very normal like techincally if you think about it, every fictional character is somebody's OC and once the canon become big enough, people do add their own OC but like the og characters are the author's OCs???. so why do i get weird looks when i mention so? how do i explain to people that im just sad because i just am. like theres no need to be a reason to be sad im just really sad randomly and everyday. How do i explain to people that im not angry at them or hating on them or anything i just have a low social battery or something. and its a messed up battery bar that is just random time of the day. how do i explain to people that infodumping on them is like a way to show that i really like them because i dont know how to verbally express stuff but if i found a common ground then maybe thats a way to communicate. How do i explain to people that im not confused like i just couldnt care less if anyone refer to me as she/her or he/him or they/them like i just dont care what they see me as cause i dont know what i see me as so like everything is fine. how do i explain to people that im not suicidal just because i dont fear death. because being afraid of a natural occurrence is quite stupid cant believe 8 yrs me was scared of it because truly, i'ld be more pissed at how i died rather than my death itself. like sure, fuck, dying rn would be great, but i dont want it. Wanting to live and not wanting to die are 2 different thing. cause death is just something that happens. when its over... you dont have to worry about anything anymore. why is it selfish to want to die? why is selfish seen as a bad thing when self care is promoted? self care is being selfish.

the other day i just thought "hey since I hate colouring so much after drawing, what if I make like a pride art with my characters on it but the flags are just blank with no stripes at all and people have to guess" because lets be fr the bucket tool on digital art apps save lives

For anyone who's following on my OC-tober progress, sorry I haven't updated them in the last 2 days. I'm very tired and took breaks
          It's back today no worries

today's OC-tober: theme and symbolism.
          English teachers: HUBBA HUBBA
          (nah cause i swear the grass is green means the grass is green)

yall ever get that lonely feeling like your in a group but your alone? like everyone have a number 1 friend they turn to first before anyone else but not everyone is that person for anyone? like your the 'nice kid' and you can talk with anyone, but you cant really mix well with any group, because being nice is the only thing you have? like everyone else seems to get along but you just float from any group? Because what if one day they just dont need you anymore?