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senjuxbam

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          every time someone speaks I have the urge to hit them so instead of doing it to them I do it to myself wether it’s physically or mentally I do it and I know it’s not healthy but it’s better than hurting others.

senjuxbam

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Someone tell me I’ll get through this..
          I really need reassurance rn.
          
          TW: wishing death on someone 
          
          
          
          
          
          
          
          I started dating a nice girl named Camron she was amazing and I mean amazing, after 1 month of dating shit started taking a turn. Something started going on at home that I wasn’t comfortable with speaking about and she knew that, I recently had found out my dad was in critical condition in the hospital. The ways I cope with things like this is simply not talking to people, I told my best friend Christina and they understood so they told her that I wouldn’t be talking to her for a few days. After at least a day, she started to think I was cheating, and I can understand why but you should trust your partner, not jumping to conclusions. My friends would say “They’re loyal they wouldn’t dare you cheat on you, trust me” however the next day she screamed at me in the cafeteria. Since I’m sensitive to loud noises my friend ran in and shouted at her which caused it to get louder. I was panicking badly. She said “let’s just break up, cheater” something in me snapped ig because I yelled at her and said fine, I ran out crying. The past few days have been a living hell, I skipped school the next day, and she goes and starts dating one of my close friends, it hurt me badly. I’m in so much pain rn, I’m mentally drained, it’s hard for me to write this but I am. On top of that she said “If I knew dating you would of caused so much problems I never would’ve dated you” when she knows damn well she’s problematic. She said “I wouldn’t give two shits if you died” which just hurt me more..

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@Ashht00n oi bestie, ik we just had a convo on a very cringe book but ayo i gotta help my fellow ash out there. I dont know you much, nor do i know her, but im damn sure that you dont deserve her. If she was even a teeeennnyyy tinnnyyy bit logical about the relationship, she wouldve talked to you directly, even if you told her not to. I think that instead of going all over the relationship thingy, and take time to take care abt yourself. You do deserve aloootttt more than wtv tf she did to you. Pls dont be bothered by her current relationship, you dont deserve going thru all that. You deserve sm1 who will truly care and love u with no doubts. We love you here, you can trust us. I would give two shits if you died, i dont want you to die. I care for you, even if i just met you. Just, you are what you are finding in others. Try taking time for yourself, ask yourself what u really need. Hope that'll help, you can trust me to vent and all. I'm there for you :D <3
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Some fucking bitch stole my tablet last night on purpose while I was fucking sleeping. Her son didn’t even have a fucking tablet and she says it’s an “accident” YOU DONT ACCIDENTALLY TAKE SOMEONES SHIT! I can and will sue this bitch because she’s an ADULT who took a 13 year olds property. Plus her son shouldn’t even have the apps I have (twitch, horror games, etc.) and he’s a 5 year old, I get notifications 24/7 so she should of saw the notifications and left it alone. I don’t care her friend died and she was in a rush, NONE of her sons shit was near mine. And so help me god, if I find out she did ANYTHING on my fucking tablet I’m sueing her.