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MARY HAD A LITTLE LAMB
          THE LAMB WAS FRIED AND COOKED
          TASTY RIBS AND TASTY STEAKS 
          I ATE THEM WITHOUT REMORSE
          OUT WENT MARY TO SEARCH
          BUT HER LAMB WAS DEAD AND GONE
          MARY FOUND OUT AND WENT INSANE 
          KILLED HER FAMILY AND HER VILLAGE
          NOW SHE LIVES WITH HER GRANDMA
          WHO SHE STABBED AND KILLED

nobody really cares
          fake smiles, fake laughs
          the world is a lie
          the words i say are different another day
          pretty smiles, pretty figures
          when all that never matters
          the hearts made from pearls
          are they darkest at every curve?

smile for the cameras
          they capture the outside
          not the barely holding person
           who's crying on the inside
          life is selfish
          yet here we are
          the beings of this earth
          the future we desire
          can we give up? 
          for life is hard

secrets we hold
          the love we desire
          simple minded yet so foolishly bound
          all we hope for  
          is a sliver of a smile
          a chance to live
          a day to go by
          life is a puzzle we solve day and day
          missing pieces sometimes make their way
          life is a journey
          for the brave to endure
          life please be easy as we are ones of gold

loving others is easier than loving yourself
          for loving yourself is the hardest of them all
          broken mirrors scarred hands
          crying beneath the stars  day and night
          mirror mirror on the wall
          who is the fairest of them all
          fairness compared to beauty
          where the melanin should shine in
          flaws are all i see
          crooked smiles , textured skin
          easier to see , harder to ignore
          trying to find beauty in my flaws
          is far a job

hopeless romantic 
          that i am
          craving for the bare minumum
          that was too much to ask
          heartbreak follows everywhere i go
          maybe thats cause im following you
          maybe its time to stop
          stop dreaming for this life
          we were never meant to be
          atleast never in this life

they say fake it till you make it
          what if you never make it
          the hatred seeps through my insides
          consumes me whole while living
          its hard to believe you
          the compliments feel empty
          your lies might make it worse
          for better or for worse
          cant hide forever
          the mirror far too hideous
          not perfect but thriving as i am
          the way i was
          the way i will be
          crying beneath the starry nights
          lies the girl
          who wishes for a day
          she'll be whole 
          fully or partially
          she can only hope

life was fun while it lasted
          you're smile was my beacon of hope
          your soul now lies within me
          its now a part of me
          fused we are one
          my person now truly

life without you was just existing
          breathing crying sleeping
          nothing to hope for
          nothing to live for
          you're my beacon 
          who lit up my life
          beautiful smiles 
          that can light up the sky

what if we all die
          and theres only two of us left
          will it be adam and eve all over again
          you say, till death do us part
          but i want you to live
          live a life without me
          i'll love you forever 
          in the hereafter
          always and forever
          will i be a speck of dust in your memories
          because my memories are all you
          and only you
          have you moved on because I persist right here
          everyday
          watching you from afar