this has been a long time coming. a whole year coming. I won't lie: since posting the last of the devil skates on thin ice in september 2018, I have been having this feeling of needing to let go. I recreated my identity, but I wasn't overcome with a swell of inspiration. I was only pulled deeper into that incessant lack of drive for dedicating time to writing for this fandom. while I certainly haven't grown out of writing at all, I have found myself straying further and further from this fandom. I stopped reading bts-centred fics. I stopped writing them altogether.
I thought I could finish a ticket to the sun before I left. for those dedicated readers of the series, I really wanted to. but deep down, I knew that while the series holds such a special place in my heart, I had fallen out of love with it at the end of 2016. so thank you for loving a ticket to the sun. I'm sorry I couldn't give it the ending you guys deserved. I have also completely removed the other stories that I was halfheartedly writing on the side, such as finifugal, my x's and y's, and room for two, as these are ideas that I still wish to revisit in the future. perhaps, just not for this fandom.
all of that aside, words will never be able to express how thankful I am for the past four years. saying goodbye is never easy, especially when it seems to be for good. I will genuinely treasure this period of my life and the people who made it so wonderful forever. thank you so much to my fellow writers for always inspiring me. thank you so much to my incredible readers for supporting me and following me through all my ups and downs during these four years. I would not be pursuing my lifelong dreams of being a writer if it weren't for fan fiction, for this fandom, for you giving me so much strength and encouragement. I am truly, truly grateful. I will see you all again someday.
take care. live happily.
all my love,
tessa.
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