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I just found out so much I’ve forgotten.
My sister who had kids is an absolute asshole. I was coerced into getting angry and fighting her and competing with my niece, I forgot this stuff completely. I was isolated because of my sister, she would get me so mad that I would be sent out of the room.
I’m in awe of how bad it was. I completely believe in my other sister, she’s been through so much. I should express it, I should speak up about how much I rely on her. How much I love the sister who will come and play games with me, how much I love that we’re similar in ways yet so different.
I want to come to terms with how much I don’t appreciate the people around me. I also want to come to terms with that fact that my body was physically frightened and I was trembling beyond my control. I clenched my jaw to stop the trembling but it wouldn’t stop.
Find everything you have and thank it, they’re there for you and are with you in the present moment. Doesn’t matter if it’s people or objects, you should appreciate what you have.
This is something I need to do.