i want to apologize. in the past i was very inconsiderate about how i was making people feel with what i was posting on here. i scared people amd made them worry. as much as i wasn't ok and this was my only outlet the behavior is still not okay. i would also like to apologize for using the r slur. i didn't not know the meaning behind it and i didn't know it was a slur until i started to educate myself. i didn't call people that but i did use it in sentences. i appreciate everyone of you who tried to help me and who offered to help while i was going through that time. i was sexually assaulted around that time when i was posting all of the suicide related things and i wasn't thinking right. my parents had refused to give me therapy or even acknowledge the fact that i had mental illnesses. eventually they came around. i was hospitalized but i'm now in therapy. i'm not sure if i'm doing better yet or not but that is what has been happening recently. as many things that were going on, they are not an excuse for worrying people who were trying to care for me, discarding peoples feelings, and using slurs that i have no right to be saying. i apologize if i upset you in any way. and thank you to everyone who kept trying to help you don't understand how greatly i appreciated/appreciate it<3
stay safe loves
(also it's summer so if you don't hate me i'm going to be more active on here)
