Once upon a time I used to talk to him about anything and he loved to respond and talk to me.
Now things have changed. He doesn't feel the same.
It makes me wonder, was I living in an illusion or relations and feelings are so easy to modify.
Was anything ever real or just my imagination?
If it was real then how did it just disappear in thin air with no trace?
How can someone be so close to someone for so long and just suddenly snap out of it and say it doesn't exist anymore.
This world surprises me. Probably it's not for me. Maybe I come from a different place, different time where I look at others from my eyes and consider them as me but in reality, they are different. They don't feel like me. They don't want to feel like me. Things don't affect them. They put themselves first in everything whereas I'll put myself after them. I feel the greatest joy in someone else's happiness and fairness. I put myself down to pull someone else up.
This world has changed so much. Feelings don't really weigh anything when there's selfishness. You become so self consumed that you don't realise that others might make you happier. You can do all that you want for yourself but love is something you can never win over, and love for others in itself is very strong. It can give you immense joy. But people don't know that. They might not even know that they are the ones missing the real essence of life, feelings, which come from within. Which makes you do things you don't imagine. Which will make everything feel better. Which can't compete with any physical feeling. Feeling that is magical, human but unfortunately, rare..
