shadowela

I was sort of, kind of, waiting to announce it later because,I don't know, anxiety, but anyway. I'M UPLOADING ON PATREON AGAIN!!! It's much simple, just for writing; I'm not trying to burn myself out again, and what I wrote on each level came from my heart, just like what I wrote in my bio here on Wattpad. You can read Wordship once a week over there if you subscribe, but even if you don't, you can still follow me for free and get an author's letter at the end of each month ♡ 
          	
          	I feel... This level of happiness and the ease with which it wraps my soul- I remember it well. I was sixteen, staring out of my window at night at the distant mountains with my feet up on the window ledge, playing the ukulele and humming to myself. After fifteen years of fighting to fit in, I finally started to fight so I could get out, until I was finally free. For others, I was locked inside my house. But I could finally breathe, and that was the night when I felt the difference. 
          	
          	I'm no longer dreading the end of a happy moment, which keeps me from enjoying the present. Instead, I'm hopeful that, no matter the darkness, there will always be light.
          	
          	Thank you for being one of the lights giving me hope. You truly are the guardians of my journey. 
          	
          	
          	Your devoted writer,
          	Ela Shadow Rose❀

purpleamaranths

@shadowela I hope you know that you are my inspiration. I adore you in ways I can't say. I have huge respect for you. 
          	  Thank you soo much for everything 
          	  
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shadowela

I was sort of, kind of, waiting to announce it later because,I don't know, anxiety, but anyway. I'M UPLOADING ON PATREON AGAIN!!! It's much simple, just for writing; I'm not trying to burn myself out again, and what I wrote on each level came from my heart, just like what I wrote in my bio here on Wattpad. You can read Wordship once a week over there if you subscribe, but even if you don't, you can still follow me for free and get an author's letter at the end of each month ♡ 
          
          I feel... This level of happiness and the ease with which it wraps my soul- I remember it well. I was sixteen, staring out of my window at night at the distant mountains with my feet up on the window ledge, playing the ukulele and humming to myself. After fifteen years of fighting to fit in, I finally started to fight so I could get out, until I was finally free. For others, I was locked inside my house. But I could finally breathe, and that was the night when I felt the difference. 
          
          I'm no longer dreading the end of a happy moment, which keeps me from enjoying the present. Instead, I'm hopeful that, no matter the darkness, there will always be light.
          
          Thank you for being one of the lights giving me hope. You truly are the guardians of my journey. 
          
          
          Your devoted writer,
          Ela Shadow Rose❀

purpleamaranths

@shadowela I hope you know that you are my inspiration. I adore you in ways I can't say. I have huge respect for you. 
            Thank you soo much for everything 
            
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123Maggie456

Shhh a secret here ,
          I love Leo and Finn chemistry so much (even more than teakook)
          Like I never ever loved side ships more than main couple that too if taekook are the one in question but surprise surprise,
          Can't wait for em to cross the line hehehe ,
          Thinking about it gives me butterflies (squeals)

123Maggie456

Just wanna ask , why aren't you uploading DeM anymore, 
          I have finished the uploaded chapters and waiting for more 

shadowela

@123Maggie456 I'm so glad you asked that right when I'm at a point in my life when I can answer (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ 
            
            All of this time, I've been running around with barely any "gas in my tank", burning myself up by trying to keep up with everyone else's speed. My books are no different; they were goals I was burning myself to finish perfectly, never feeling like they were good enough. I thought pushing myself a little harder was the answer, but my body reached its limit last year. I was in and out of the hospital trying to heal my body, and it finally occured to me to try to heal my head. Can you imagine the absolute shock I felt when I received my diagnosis and it said "yes, everything you've lived through is completely valid and can be neurologically explained"? I was bedridden because of the massive weigh that left my shoulders. So, here I am, on my second week of medication for my AU-ADHD, practically oozing happiness from every pore while I write again and paint again and, even more astonishingly, I'm able to finish projects again. The answer to your question deserved to be thorough because never, ever, do I want you to feel like I abandoned a story you loved, I just have to get back into the habit I used to love and you'll have new chapters to read in no time.  Before, I could only write two thousand words a week. Now, I can do more than three thousand a day. I hope my doctors can help be go back to those golden years when I was only just starting with Democritus and I could finish ten thousand words before dinner. For now, I'll focus on Wordship since I find it easier to write at this moment. I hope you like that one too. And I hope this answer gives you hope; I'm not giving up on any one of my stories.
            
            I am and I'll always be, 
            
            Your devoted writer, 
            Ela Shadow Rose ♡
            
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tranquilityc2

Bonjour,
          
          Je suis tombée sur ton profil Wattpad et ton projet d’écriture. J’accompagne des auteurs dans la correction, la structure du manuscrit et la préparation à la publication, notamment quand ils veulent passer d’un texte en ligne à un vrai livre publié.
          
          Si tu envisages un jour de retravailler ton roman ou de le publier, je peux t’aider à y voir plus clair.

shadowela

@tranquilityc2 Thank you so much for you offer, I'll keep it in mind if I ever need help from someone with your skills (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
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shadowela

Aaaaand I uploaded another chapter on Wordship!!! ❤︎❤︎❤︎ I hope you like it, and the message at the end. Love you❀

shadowela

@BATTYmewmew Yes, I'm so sorry, I had to. Without meaning to, I did something AO3 doesn't allow (self promotion for monetary gain (I promoted my Patreon at the begining of one of my stories)) and my stories got deleted. But don't worry. I still have the same name and everything (as well as every lovely comment anyone ever made), and my intention is to post again when the time is right. Right now, I think it'll be a good idea to focus on finishing Wordship before adding any uploads on any other place or app (it's easier for me to post on Wattpad because I can schedule my posts and they will be posted for me). And, of course, I won't promote anything other than my Wattpad <⁠(⁠ ̄⁠︶⁠ ̄⁠)⁠> It's a good thing I keep everything save somewhere else, can you imagine? Anyway, have a great day! Love you!
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BATTYmewmew

@shadowela girl did you delete your Ao3 account? I cant find it!
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TeacookieSucker

Thank you For the update ela♡
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TeacookieSucker

Ela how is your health??
          Are you well?

TeacookieSucker

@shadowela I'm so happy you're doing better! Please take care and don't overwork yourself. We'll wait patiently for you and your wonderful stories. Get well soon!(˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶)
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shadowela

@TeacookieSucker Thank you for asking (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ You don't have to worry, doctor said I'm responding well to physiotherapy. I still have plenty more therapies and appointments to attend before my time is fully mine again, but I always make an effort to write <⁠(⁠ ̄⁠︶⁠ ̄⁠)⁠> I have so many things planned for my readers and I can't wait to show you. I'm your devoted writer, after all ♡
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TeacookieSucker

ELAAA~ Are you busyyy~~

_velvettt_

@shadowela  Please take all the rest you need and focus on getting better Elaa . We’ll be here cheering you on while you heal. Get well soonnn
            *Lotsss of lovee ♡
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TeacookieSucker

@shadowela No no, it is completely fine. Your health is very important than one chapter. No need to write when you are bedridden you need to take more care about yourself okay than think about doing other things. After this please walk more carefully in stairs.❤
            
            I love you too❤ Please take more care about yourself❤We are here to read your creative stories so I as a readers should patiently wait for it...I was just wondering why you didn't updated yet because of that I message to know if you are busy or something. ❤
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shadowela

@TeacookieSucker Hiiii, I'm sorry about today's chapter, I forgot to tell you. I've been struggling with back pain but last week it became unbearable so I had to be looked at by a doctor; I'm currently waiting until I can get my spine scanned. I promise I'll write even if I'm bedridden <⁠(⁠ ̄⁠︶⁠ ̄⁠)⁠> Hopefully, I'll have a chapter for next week. I do hope you forgive me, I know you look forward to these chapters (⁠っ⁠˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠)⁠っ This is partly my fault, I thought ice was the only thing I needed after falling down the stairs (⁠ ⁠・ั⁠﹏⁠・ั⁠)
            
            Anyway, I love youuuuuu ♡ Thank you for writing me this message, I wouldn't have remembered what I forgot otherwise (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
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love_urselfbts

So here, I'm back after a long time.
          Ela, I hope and wish that you are doing fine and shine. I just wanted to tell you that someone was impressed by your writing skills, which was not a surprise to me, because I knew the moment I suggested to her the story "WORDSHIP", I knew that she was gonna love it. She has sent you this "tell her to keep writing and I'm waiting for the next parts and tell her that I love her"
          Ohhh!!! You got another charmer, the pokemons are collecting now. ⊂⁠(⁠(⁠・⁠▽⁠・⁠)⁠)⁠⊃
          
          And we are also waiting for the story's next part every week like good luck, as for the commenting, I'm not getting the time so when I get the proper time I would leave the comments because seriously I miss writing the comments on your story, because why Would I not, you deserve those little motivation lines, you DESERVE it.(⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
          
          And I read about you getting the HARVARD certificate!!!!!!!!! Many many congratulations our hardworking STAR(⁠~⁠‾⁠▿⁠‾⁠)⁠~
          
          All the best and bestest luck and love from us ✨

shadowela

@love_urselfbts Thank you so much, this fills my heart with so much joy I could fly (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡ I love love love the comments and love love love my pokemons (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) Tell her I write every single day and keep writing even more ♡
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shadowela

I wish I could post pictures here, I want to show you what I got (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) I just earned my certificate on Masterpieces of World Literature by Harvard! I'll post it on my insta later so you can see it <⁠(⁠ ̄⁠︶⁠ ̄⁠)⁠> 
          
          I'll see if I can study another one, but right now I'm too focused on finishing the polished manuscript of DEM. I'm doing nothing but writing there days. My notebook looks like the ramblings of a drunken witch (⁠•⁠ ⁠▽⁠ ⁠•⁠;⁠)
          
          To be completely transparent with you, trial and error has made me realize my limitations are unmoving walls. I've hit them multiple times trying to recreate what I considered to be "proper productivity". But no more. It frustrates me. But even if I don't like it, I have to accept that entering social media impacts my health. I do read everything you send me (I scroll down the notifications thingy on the phone so I don't have to enter the app), I care (I literally have screenshots of them, talk about them to my family, and they help me go through the day with a bit more energy), it's just too much, sometimes, to write back. It happens with everything, I'm stressed just from writing this long message. Earning that certificate took me a whole year because I couldn't bring myself to do it more than once a week, and it wasn't because I was lazy (which is what I thought and I beat myself over it multiple times), it was simply because my body can't keep up with the rhythm of life today.
          
          But don't worry about anything ୧⁠(⁠^⁠ ⁠〰⁠ ⁠^⁠)⁠୨ I'll just have to accept that I'm one of those writers you see once every full moon ╮⁠(⁠^⁠▽⁠^⁠)⁠╭  
          
          I'm writing, I'm healthy, I'm happy, and I'm going to go and write some more. Byeeeeee, I love youuuuuu (⁠ ⁠◜⁠‿⁠◝⁠ ⁠)⁠♡
          
          
          (Ps. I love reading your messages and comments♡)

123Maggie456

@shadowela and many many congratulations on your degree, hope you climb more higher on the stairs of success, take care
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123Maggie456

@shadowela  Sometimes, even doing a little feels so tiring and exhausting. Be kind to yourself—don’t strain yourself too much. A hobby is a hobby only as long as you enjoy it, not when you start forcing yourself to do it like a job. I myself have been feeling like I’m doing too much these days and need a little break, but you know, life goes on. This time will pass too.
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