Melania

It was my birthday today ^^
          
          I got £400, a fish tank with 4 tiny fishies, I called them Junior the 1st, Junior the 2nd, Junior the 3rd, and King Mackentoosh the 7th
          
          I also got new pro beat headphones with amazing noise cancellation, alongside that I also got new clothes :D
          
          TW: vent
          
          Other than that, I was upset the whole morning because I was so overwhelmed with everything around me :( there's this one boy that's incredibly clingy around me and I just felt so pressured the entire time I tried to avoid him. It wasn't in a rude way, like I told him I was hanging out with other friends, but even with them, I just felt so lonely. It was incredibly difficult to secretly wipe my building tears while so many people were around. (He would constantly ask the same questions, "Did i do something wrong?" "You sure you're okay?" While I'm on the verge of tears and just want to be left alone "You're not talking to me much today" when I said I was hanging around other people "Please don't replace me" when it's just two days I'm not around him. I genuinely don't know what to do, and that sad expression on his face makes me feel like shit every time. He has these sudden mood swings when I can't handle my own shit)
          
          I ended up breaking down in my mom's hug when I got home, but I felt better when I saw my gifts even when my parents are incredibly busy, they were trying their best and I just felt so much better
          
          I genuinely hate school, and I have nobody else to go to if I just want a shoulder to cry on, and nobody else i can vent to because they either have their own problems or I don't want some of them to know how much I'm really struggling so they don't need to worry about me. So this is my last resort, to just atleast get a word out if I'm not posting any books or updates of my hiatus
          
          Plz bmf snap: pigeonwith4leg

Heyyyy

I'm so sorry, I'm on a writers block... I genuinely don't have the energy to CONTINUE a story, but I have the energy to write a new BL or possibly even a GL! Please recommend story plot requests and if I like it, I'll give you credits!
          
          I'm also sorry for being on a hiatus for SO long... its been over 3 months. I'm assuming most of you forgot about me anyways from how much I'm changing my profile... I promise I still love to write books! 
          
          My views are coming in slowly and I'm not getting a lot of activity, so I'm assuming writing a new fanfic would definitely boost it. Fluff or angst, I'm up for anything!
          
          I LOVE U ALL MY STINKY DUMPLINGS

Ugh, I feel so flipping useless T_T. My OC BL's are getting no attention, so uhm... here comes another Itafushi, I guess. 

Working on a new BL because my other one flopped :) i know many won't read it because it's not an actual ship, but instead between two of my OC's. But, as long as I like it, I'll be happy

Am I failing as an author? I don't know what's going on, but I'm getting like... NO activity. My story has been on 13.2k views for like several days now, I've been getting no notifications, and nobody is answering my communication board messages...
          
          Does this happen to everybody?
          
          A few days ago, I was wondering. "Do readers only care about the books and not how the author in real life is doing?" Because... nobody is talking to me. 
          
          Don't get me wrong! I love what I do for a living. But I write over 100,000 words in my notes app, and I don't even get paid for it, let alone followers or even just basic comments anymore. 
          
          Im currently writing a book! Nobody wanted to know what it was about. T_T
          Im pissed off at Genshin Impact quests! Only one person replied. T_T
          Does anybody wanna match Alien Stage PFP? Nobody!!!!!!!
          
          It's so rare when I wake up to over 10 notifications, but... I'm hardly getting over 5 every week. My profile is flopping, and I don't know what I'm doing wrong. 
          
          My bio has been "send me recommendations," or if "you want teaser leaks," then "add me." But no? I seriously don't know how to improve the amount of attention I'm getting, but I'm seriously dropping SO FAR. I'm writing for FREE.
          
          Im not trying to be greedy or selfish. I'm just... confused. If there's anybody out there that will read this, Lord. Please tell me what I'm doing wrong.

Writing a new book! It's gonna take probably a few weeks though... shouldn't be long as summer break is just around the corner. Does anybody wanna know about it? :(

Genshin actually pisses me off. I'm waiting for C8 Columbina (i need her) but these quests pmo. Especially the inazuma ones, like, bitch, do it yourself? I can't do that fuckass puzzle one with the long named prick because she didn't tell me what to do and there was a good 12 keypads that kept reseting. She can kiss Captains frozen asshole. Thay quest was 50 primos BTW. I had to stop it because SOMEONE wouldn't tell me what to do. 
          
          And I'm not gonna play the game if I have to search tutorials on YouTube every 5 minutes.
          
          Fuckass gambling games.

Anybody want to be the Till to my Ivan?.. 

A little meme profile for June... ¿¡