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Idk who See's this but I just need to let my feelings out rn.
So like my bf keeps pushing me to "do the deed" with him but I'm just not ready I mean he is almost 18 and I just turned 16. I keep telling him I'm not ready but that doesn't seem to be working bc now all his friends are texting me telling me to "do it bc he had needs". I love my bf but I'm not ready. I feel like if I don't do it I'll lose him for good and that's why I'm currently balling my eyes out right now, my lungs burn bc I can't breathe ( I have a lung condition and when I get too upset I have trouble breathing and I either pass out or throw up {gross ik} ).
Anyway I just needed to vent to something or idk prolly have a panic attack.... Ik I'm weird but yeah...
I'm just tired feeling like the only thing I'm good for is to please men bc thats all anyone ever wants from me and when I don't give it to them they throw me aside like the ugly piece of shit I am, tell me how that truly feel about me then go and find someone who will give it to them....