Okay, hi... This is weird.
Urm, I just feel like I just need to vent or rant and idk how to even express how I'm feeling nor do I know who to talk to.
Obviously I just updated my book, but it's going to be the last update for a while. I'm so sorry if I may have disappointed anyone but I really don't think I can keep up with updating, and promoting my book in hopes people will read it at this point in my life.
I'm just not at my best right now, my mental health is honestly suffering. At first, I thought I was just being antisocial but lately I've just come to realize something's gone wrong somehow. Writing feels like it's suffocating me these days and reading isn't giving me solace like it used to. And that's how I'm something's gone terribly wrong.
I want to say I laugh, but even I know even while I put on a smile, my soul is bleeding and crying. My heart is punishing me for something I just couldn't help.
I don't know how or why I'm like this, but I'm definitely not the way I was cheerful before. It's like every night, I just lay on my bed and my mind tortures me with memories and possibilities that I could've forgotten, but never did.
I feel as if I've lost myself.
I don't know how to even explain it.
I've obviously completed as much reading requests as I can, and I've made sure to fulfill every promise I made. I don't want anyone to feel as if I'm untrustworthy or I'm a liar or something, or I finished up all my requests as best as I could.
It probably doesn't concern anyone but hey, I just wanted to let it all out.
I do hope y'all have a lovely day.
Thank you guys so much for reading my book, and being my friends. Idek if anyone's gonna reply this bc idk...
But yeah... So I'll see you guys when ik my weirdass self is back. For now, I just need time to heal.
Not like it's that much of a big deal, but like I said. I just wanted to talk.
I'm logging out now.
I'll see you guys someday soon!❤️
