Shibaan

@shenzibell 
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I am no longer heartbrokendevils, sylphtome, azurecoven, wyrdwyvern, sildarabell or rebelangst. I am shenzibell, and I am at peace with it. 
            
            I will reactivate this account and hopefully become more active on it, and will use it to upload new pieces of writing that I have made in the fandoms as I am now in. I hope you all are happy with the direction I will now take.

Being in the homestuck fandom had its fond memories for me- I made a lot of friends here, some of whom I left behind when I went on my lengthy hiatus. The series itself was an escape for me from some difficult issues I was experiencing with my friends at the time- strangled by my best friend, all my other friends taking his side, being on my own for a year. It left me very estranged from the people who loved me despite it in my real life, and I secluded myself in the homestuck community on instagram and wattpad.
            
            It was on instagram that I was exposed to NSFW content involving homestuck characters- the smutwednesday and smutstuck hashtags ran rampant back then, and although it didn’t really mess me up all that much - I certainly never intended to see them, having followed some homestuck accounts for cool art - it got me grounded from instagram for three years, and whatever internet use I had was constantly monitored and supervised. My parents are good people, but ultimately they do not understand how at home I feel in online fandoms and how it makes me so much more emotionally stable than interacting with a great many of my real friends.
            
            MLM slash fiction like Kellic and Frerard was my main reading material in my early teens, and while I now recognise it as problematic, having something to read that wasn’t the same cishet bull was very helpful to young confused 10-year-old me. I will not write any more bandom fanfiction, as I now know that shipping real life people is harmful.
            
            Skydoesminecraft, raughy, Chrissietheeevee, G0ldsand, and Thekellinunderthevic were people whose stories I’ve followed a long time. The one thing they’ve all had in common was that they evolved into the people they have today- and it is something that I will undergo too.

At 15, I have now won a local short story competition two years in a row, am known as the so-called JK Rowling of my school, been shortlisted for a Writer’s Digest competition, made a youtube channel for animations - leniently used, i can’t make proper animations since I lack the software for it- , successfully joined the maps of people I’ve very much looked up to in the past, talked to and had my art praised by and become friends with some of them, will have my voiceacting featured in an acclaimed warrior cats map, and feel at peace with myself for the first time ever. I have matured into a person I feel my 11-year-old would look up to and be proud of, and am still maturing. While I still am anxious and awkward, I have made something of myself and have learned a lot of valuable lessons in navigating various relationships.
            
            I was primarily very active in the homestuck, drawn to life, harry potter, how to train your dragon, killjoys, attack on titan, shadowhunters, percy jackson, bandom, and warriors fandoms. While I am still very active in Warriors - my first fandom - my focus has now gravitated to other fandoms; The Dragon Prince, Gotham, Game of Thrones, Skyrim, and Dragon Age being some of them. I was in the The Umbrella Academy fandom for a while before I realised how problematic the relationship between Alison and Luther was. All of the first mentioned fandoms have a special place in my heart, but I’ve moved on from many of them. My tastes grow and shift over time and I have found new things I am interested in.

*hisses*
            
            
            
            
            
            
            
            
            
            
            Nooooo