Like I'm a third wheel and I'm treated like a child by my friends but I guess that's what I get for acting like one lol but still,,,,,? It's tiring acting cute and happy when I really just want to scream and yell and cry but I don't want to cry infront of my friends bc I always cry and I hate it... I'm literally the only one in my group who's good at emotions but I need someone else who's good at emotions a d affection bc I feel really deprived from love??? Idk but something in me just hurts a lot,,,,, maybe it's year that they'll leave me or that they actually don't want me as a friend bc I'm annoying or something bc I need closure bc u know,,,, trust issues:) 0R maybe i don't think they like me bc we like never text privately but idk why that matters to me but for some reason it does and that sucks cuz they say they hate texting but then text each other all the time...... my dudes idk I'm just kinda not the these days